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ASMR General Upd8…family, harp, guitars…and whatever happened to my ex (Wolf)? Narcissistic Personality Disorder? (Answers on a postcard!)

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Today’s ASMR Whispering Witch Nocturnal Chat…a general catch up (in 4 parts).

A bit about my dad, his cancer and death, my harp (a little bit of singing)…and a general catch up on “Whatever Happened to my Fiancé?” (Answers on a postcard!)

The latter I have recorded several times. Posting up for the sake of continuity & so when I mention I have stuff to sort out…or refer to the mess that was left in 2014, you have an idea of what I am referring to. In a nutshell, Wolf ripped me off. He claims to be mentally ill. Though I have no way to validate that. My own psychology & psychotherapeutic studies would lead me to guess he has narcissistic personality disorder, is delusional and paranoid…perhaps has a serious mental illness. But that is only my personal point of view.

He is certainly a pathological liar, in my experience and by his own admission. As soon as he finished lying to me, he was lying to his family.

The video may give you clues…many red flags you would associate with NPD.

So tonight’s ASMR vlog is a general catch up…with some chat about how I was done up!

I haven’t had time to delete him from my personal FB historical pages & albums as yet. But he is ancient history to me and we certainly won’t remain in touch!

He left two years ago having lied to me for 14 months. Sometimes being aspie really helps you see the facts for what they are.

This only come up recently due to his attempt to contact me. I think perhaps he hoped some kind of reconciliation was possible. If he harboured any hope in that regard I can only say it was inappropriate in the circumstances at the least.

It’s easy to talk about it now, but his deception damn near derailed my life professionally and personally for a while. So I feel strongly about it right now and would definitely advise others to listen to their intuition. If you’re saving mobiles as evidence “just in case”, something is definitely wrong!

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Fancy picsart selfie – epic Bathtime!

Green moodlights & Lush Guardian of the Forest BathBomb. Listening to Lana Del Rey. Smell v vanilla (American Cream conditioner).

Drinking greendrink with apple cider vinegar & maplesyrup.

My pookie (aka Elvis) out tonight doing TeddyBoy stuff. I’m in, and taking my routine at a decadent pace!

I have mentioned before, sometimes I have real problems editing my blogs. Apparently this is not uncommon with Higher Functioning Autism…my brain jumps from idea to idea…and touch typing means most blogs I intend as articles end up more of a stream of consciousness. Covering too many topics and ending up a bit of mess! Some are fine. But some I am not at all pleased with. So, as far as blogging goes, I’m still “developing my style”.

My blogs are intended to be informal rather than scientific articles. Just blogs about things that interest me. General updates in my personal life. Ponderings on the philosophy of magick (as a path to Self-Realisation) and psychology.

Many blogs are inspired by questions from students and clients of Maya Magickal Spells & Personalised Initiation Programmes and Mayastar Academy Online Natural Energy Healing & Spiritual Development Courses – but at the same time, I include articles about my hobbies…so it is a bit varied. A blog about how I get “grunge hair” without using heat or styling products; a review of a mineral powder foundation; how I mix my henna for an easier rinse etc. It’s intended to personal…but also informative. I think in the main it appeals to peoole who are a bit like me and share my interests or hobbies.

So I hope my blog is useful and people enjoy it. But I do see there needs to be some change with my editing failure. Bear with me – I’m sure I will strike a balance at some point!

However, since I uploaded my first YouTube video at Christmas (because my nephew pressed record when I tried to get a nice family photo)…I have been wondering if maybe vlogging could be more suitable for some of my blogs. Possibly even make some things more accessible.

At first I thought I wouldn’t have the confidence to be able to do it. So, I have mulled it over a lot. Considering how I could approach it. What would feel right. And how it might be received.

My aspergers also means I sometimes don’t speak…or I speak quietly. And that was a concern – would vlogging mean the stream of consciousness style was a problem with videos too? Would I feel it was too personal or intrusive as well.

I have been working with ASMR quiet speaking in my magickal work for a long time. I even choreographed some silent rituals or rituals that only have chants. And it’s worked very well for me. And because I am nocturnal I find by nature, I tend to whisper a lot as a way of naturally winding down at bedtime after my meditation work is finished.

So it’s that habit that gave me the idea for the format I would like to work with.

I really have no idea if it would be interesting to other people. I know I’m not the only ASMR fan out there but I am not planning random brushing sounds or hypnotic role play style vids. My plan was to use part of my day to record a “chat”. And to keep it varied and informative and informal. Relaxing and with relaxing background sounds etc.

I’m intending the format to work for me and viewers. But the channel to be a new way to share information that I haven’t tried before. It may even work well as a way to talk about subjects I intend to blog about later – a way to help me to avoid my stream of consciousness blog problem!

I know trolling on YouTube can be pretty bad…but definitely trolls a minority. Just a small minority with a big mouth! So I may get some negative feedback. That isn’t a problem. Constructive criticism is useful.
.destructive criticism is something I ignore. And the only way to see if it works will be to bite the bullet and try it!

I tried a few sample recordings and realised the mic on my mobile is not sufficient…too much hiss which would be problem with the quiet speaking/whispering style. Though I will upload one from my phone because I would like to see the difference in quality with my (brand spanking new) camcorder!

It took a while to find one that has an audio input. But for the style I want to use, it’s going to be essential.

Also the camera I chose is small and has a built in stand. Which will help keep my vids informal. A bit of the vibe of a personal chat. Hoping if people like the style and the content, it will be a fantastically useful way to share info and ideas.

So…watch this space!

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General Upd8 | Midwich Cuckoos | Autism | Aspergirl | High Functioning | NPD | Ax Men | ASMR in Magick

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#nomakeupselfie #selfieoftheday #cremedelamer complexion in the bedroom listening to an #audible on my #kindlefire waiting for my #TeddyBoy.

I’ve been trying to write a blog for 3 days about the #midwichcuckoos effect I notice in some ppl faced w/ a #highfunctioning #autistic. I am an #Aspergirl (#Aspergers is a kind of #Autism). But I also study psychology…I practice #magick so I think that’s important. But this current blog is going all over the place. I can’t seem to make my point without ending up trying to illustrate it with anecdotes that rapidly wind up off topic.

Think I may leave it a few days b4 I try again 😛

I think I’ve written so much about #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #npd that wherever I begin, I keep writing abt them to illustrate the difference in autism. #narcos are like the polar opposite of autistics. Terrible personality clash. But comparing atypical to atypical isn’t v helpful in explaining what is unique to the #autiste!

Grrr. I’m frustrating myself. I may write about something else and come back to my Midwich Cuckoo one.

Soooo. Tonight the Killing Moon Karmic Reversal 30 Day Ritual Intensive cycle begins. http://www.mayamagickal.net/killingmoon.htm

The opening ritual is quite long and I will complete it after I chill with my #TeddyBoy…have some dinner…watch some #Axmen and #idchannel.

I’m really excited about developing my #asmr skills…it’s something I have always used in magick. Also in my personal #meditation work. But I have some ideas for applications I would like to explore. Not #roleplay or #sex – I think #asmr works well to help relax the conscious mind…but retain a higher level of concentration. Such as you would using meditation. Anyway…I will be experimenting with that soon…and will share poss on my youtube and also my wordpress…see how it goes.

Xxxx

PS. Excuse the hashtags…was posting this on other social networks…and it’s been a while since I blogged a general upd8 ♡

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Anna Louise May | Random Updates | Heels | Lighting | Teddy Boys | Silliness | Unicorn | Nights at the Opera | Motown | Spells & Work

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Random updates…

Spent my evening sorting out stuff so my #dancestudio can convert to a (rudimentary) bedroom so when my brother visits he doesn’t have to clock watch. And sorting out the rest of the new #ledbulbs – for #energysaving & #moodlight effects that don’t mess w/ my #epilepsy.

It was a bit too late for paperwork by then…so I sent this pic to my #TeddyBoy to ask if he wanted a bath 🙂 It was my fave of the silly pix I sent as it not only includes my most spectacular #sparkly #swarovski #stilettos (my black velvet #gothic #princess #heels) but Lux the #Unicorn & #psychadelic lighting conspired to show my #delicate #ankles & my strong #ballet trained feet feet off perfectly. It’s all just soooo me.

So, me & spider had a bath…ate cold #pizza, watched #GhostHunters & spent a “night at the opera”, listening to #motown.

Perfect.

Tonight I will really have to #henna my roots, tint my eyebrows & eyelashes (I look so unkempt to myself!) & do my admin work for Mayastar Academy. Two #spells for #MayaMagickal – one reversal (as a preliminary working for a #prosperity working) and one #ArchangelMichael #ProtectionSpell.

Today’s fave 3 things…#pets, #chanel no19 and my #bellicon #rebounder!

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Bathtime Blogging | Aspergers | Social Media | Spiritual Development | Mineral Makeup | Reiki Healing | Meditation | Spells | Mayastar Specials

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It’s me! #selfieoftheday showing Mineral Magic Mineral Powder (no concealer or anything…this is just the powder, appied with a kabuki brush over Creme de la Mer), eyebrows defined with wunderbrow & lush cosmetics strawberry bombshell tinted lipbalm. I am kind of testing the mineral magic. I don’t wear make up as a rule but when I do it is usually just powder, lipstain and a pair of sunglasses!

So I am wearing mineral magic when I sleep and over moisturiser, over serum, when exercising. Just doing as much as I can with it to see if it irritates around the eyes, dries the skin around my nose, causes spots etc. So far I absolutely love the stuff but am gonna continue my totally unscientific testing as I want to blog about it. I am sure I am not the only 42 year old woman who can’t be bothered with REAL makeup! So, along with my random blogs I think beauty tips and haircare is something that I consider enough to share with my followers.

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By the way, I know many people who follow me are current, previous or potential students & clients of www.mayastar.net and www.mayamagickal.net – but I know some follow my artwork too. Or are into similar things (henna, magick, ballet, dance, hiphop, corsetry, preraphaelite art, poetry, tightlacing, meditation – I think some  probably find a bit of a kindred spirit because of my autism – I’m aspergers which is a kind of high functioning autism – or maybe just like my style!), but I really do appreciate it!

On my various social networks I have 29000 followers at the moment and it seems amazing – and flattering in a way too. I’m not a natural when it comes to putting myself out there but because my work is online (teaching distance learning courses for spiritual development & self realisation mostly), it’s important for me to be as accessible as possible while keeping a balance.

I think my students and clients find it reassuring…they are able to get a “feel” for me as a person and my principles…and also my interests. I think that can help connect in a more personal way than I would be able to do in real life. Not because I am antisocial but more because my autism means I relate and communicate far more effectively through writing than through speaking. In most ways I am a natural hermit…but that’s a bonus in the work I do. I also think people feel more able to open up to me in a constructive way when it means they have to consider their words and articulate their thoughts and feelings in a way that encourages selfawareness far more than speaking does.

This can be an essential part of tailoring magickal work for people. I don’t advertise my magickal work as so much comes from recommendations…which is a good thing!  I don’t ask people to review my magickal work because it’s v personal. I am a psychotherapist and qualified in counselling which I think also helps…but I wouldn’t advertise that either. So most online reviews are for my teaching work. There are quite a few on www.linkedin.annalouisemay.net and some of www.maya.mayastar.net (FB) too…and quite a few testimonials on the http://www.mayastar.net testimonials page. But for people interested in attunement work, I think the articles on MS – especially www.mayastar.net/courseswork.htm, help people to understand what I do and whether it’s a good fit for them. Likewise, the articles on Maya Magickal that explain what I do and my experience etc, are helpful to people considering whether my work may assist them in their personal goals.

Social media does seem a strange addition…my blogs are not exactly themed and pretty much cover my hobbies and thoughts. But I do think it’s an added dimension to online presence that’s helpful in a way that’s evolved with my work 🙂

Obviously if you work for yourself, regardless of how vocational you consider that work, advertising, marketing and letting people know you exist is important. An example is, if you wanted a new credit card you would put it in google and find the best fit for you. Whereas my services may sometimes be searched for but more often are found by people who didn’t know this kind of energy work was available – so people more often find me when looking for something similar rather than looking for me.

Gosh…that was a looong blog. I hope it makes some sense. In a nutshell, thank you to those who follow me! I really appreciate it. X

I better sign off…bubblebath blogging and the water is getting chilly…and my Teddy Boy is due for dinner and some Studio Ghibli entertainment soon.

Xxxx

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Fifties Dress | Red Roses | Pizza | Valentines | Lush Haul | Bath Blogging

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Dressed for a perfect Valentine’s Day (the dress was a couple of sizes too big…reviewers on Amazon said it “came up small” but I guess their bodies came up bigger than mine!). #Fifties dress wowed my Teddy Boy.  Black with red roses, red petticoat, elasticated belt (thank goodness as the dress did look too big!) & red shoes (stilettos) & a nifty hairstick updo.

Was a lovely night…ate pizza & watched Breakfast At Tiffanys. Then listened to motown and chatted under the fairy lights in bed. I had planned for us to watch the dvd on the living room but the dvd player is temperamental. The one in the bedroom is reliable & since my bed is a futon, a couple of big pillows make it into a comfortable “sofa”.

My honey (being to the sweetest), bought me the most enormous Lush Haul ever! He became a fan after I got him some dream cream to try on his dry skin. He often comes round early for dinner and if I’m still in the bath we chat in bathroom while I soak. (It’s an essential part of my day…I do my most frivolous blogging from the bath!) But he pays attention to what I say…an amazing trait in a bf! So he had a list of all my favourites…frozen bathbomb, Guardian of the Forest bathbomb, ro’s argan body conditioner, sympathy for the skin, butterball (like super moisturising bathbomb), rehab shampoo, americancream conditioner, rose jam bubblebath and yellow fun. He got a few extras too…blue fun (smells lovely), Vanillia perfume and minty face mask too.

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I didn’t ask…but he must have spent a fortune. I sorted it all into a box with my current stash and the bedroom smells gorgeous!

Definitely feeling like the cat that godt the cream. The best Valentines Day I have had since I was a teenager!

Feel v pampered and princessy 😀

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Loved up ♡♡♡♡ ALM (Maya)

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Happy Days | Lalaloopsy | Teddy Boys | Magick | Resolutions | Veganism | Lush | Lana Del Rey | Big Eyes

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I love…waking up in a mess of Lalaloopsy BuildaBear dolls! My TeddyBoy has given me loopsy fever and I have ten of them! Candyfloss scented…four in their official costumes…four in PJs (I still hug teddies to sleep and the official costumes were not so cuddly!). And two additional dolls as Princess Anna and Princess Elsa – special additional Christmas memento. My first Christmas without dad…my first Christmas with my TeddyBoy…and my first Christmas dinner as a vegan!

Have had tons of temple work from Solstice onwards. New Year is a special time for people making resolutions and magick can help with clearing the decks and creating suitable energies to support change. It’s great to be able to help and inspiring to work with people who are inspired!

Happy happy days!

Current fave music still Lana Del Rey – fave album Honeymoon and fave track undecided but I actually favour those for the Big Eyes soundtrack at the moment.

Time for a Lush bubble bath (adoring Love and Light hand cream which I am using as a body lotion at the moment).

Then prep my special plant based vegan stew to put on for 2mrw (soooo convenient and filled with superfood veggies!)…do a little admin…then my man will be over to chill before I do attunements and spell work followed by my personal meditation work before I pick up on my Yogananda book about the Hindu understanding of AscendedMaster Jeshua (Jesus) and his message of devotional practice which is so akin to Bhakti Yoga as to be extremely congruent with my own personal religious observations.

So I’ll get on…BubbleBath is calling!

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