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Magick to Invoke Options, Opportunity & Freedom | Clearing Stagnation | Removing Restriction | Eliminating Limbo

A combination ritual for a client inspired me to blog about the potential for a Tantric Shamanic Ritual Intensive.

All situations are unique, but this particular intensive would be a useful fit for a variety of options. With TS rituals they can be easily tailored for a perfect fit for the client too.

The Loki TS ritual is relatively new to Maya Magickal, and makes a great start to this intensive by removing blocks on all levels – even helping the client to move past blocks that are rooted in their own limited beliefs or hindering effects of their behaviour.

A blocked situation can feel insurmountable. You may that sense of limbo where you feel bound up. Or feel like all options are beyond you because of internal or external restrictions…fear of success can generate massive scale inertia in some people and magick can provide a catalyst to move beyond it.

This is also useful if you need to uncover the source of (for example), harassment, aggravation, deception or some other external influence that is creating a state of stagnation or limbo. The sense of being in the dark and waiting for something to happen can be debilitating and depressing.

The Loki working, followed by the Heimdall working and finished with the Odin working (which can be tailored for your particular circumstance) can be worked to expose the truth (internally or externally) and then resolve the situation by invoking “Justice by Right”.

The final focus being on achieving a sense justification which puts you back in the driving seat of your life with a greater awareness and renewed confidence.

The Loki ritual was originally created for the purpose of unravelling a stagnant situation.

Chaos is sometimes considered a negative state – but Chaos is a state where change is possible – inevitable in fact; stagnation is a negative state; it blocks change and it can persist and affect many areas of your life as your consciousness conforms more and more to the restrictive view.

So invoking an element of Chaos opens possibilities! It’s very effective. And as with all TS workings, the spell works from the inside out. So change from within and is manifested externally as life falls in with the new perspective. It means the positive effects are cumulative and built on a solid foundation. This is true of all the TS rituals I provide. They are extremely comprehensive.

Magick works in real time but because of the focus of this intensive, I recommend it worked on consecutive Saturdays as the Saturn influence is useful ♡

The Killing Moon Karmic Reversal 30 Day Ritual Intensive special offer is still open. I am accomodating as many people as is viable…I can take two more. So the option will be taken down tomorrow night. If I take too many people in a cycle the daily working for all of them could end up tying up hours of each day.

If I work a double KM cycle I do the daily working split into two or even 3, to keep my schedule flexible. The cycle begins on the 12th. But the special offer for both a single working or a triple, ends in 24 hours. Info about the KM www.mayastar.net/special.htm and www.mayamagickal.net/killingmoon.htm

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Protection Spells | Reversal Spells | Love Spells | Black Magick | Karma

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Today’s bathtime blog taken from a client question regarding the karmic implications of protection spells…which relates to exorcism or reversals too as they have a similar structure.

Brought to you from a Yoga Bomb BathBomb from Lush hot bath…with red moodlights. Today extra long bath because I woke up with my head tipped back in my sleep. It’s a weird problem. If I sleep on my back I am fine. If I roll on my side I seem to tip my head back and wake up with a stiff neck. When I do, I now boycott my workout because I don’t want to risk injury.

I have considered sleeping in a neck corset (aka posture collar) to prevent me doing it. It’s such an irritation when I do it that I don’t think a posture collar would be a major hassle. It seems like a great idea. I wear corsets in bed (for rib contouring…also they help me relax as the hug emulation increases my oxytocin level. V handy if you’re autistic! Physiological differences in brain wiring means we make much less than neurotypicals and oxytocin counters stress hormones so tight lacing is actually good for my health!). But if I get a posture collar I definitely want one that’s made to fit properly and is breathable.

Pleased with myself for this new idea…wondering why I never thought of trying it before.

Anyway, for now a looong soak followed by a massage will work the kinks out!

So…my customer raised an interesting question. If a spell returns negative intentions/actions (which create negative karmic bonds) back to their source, is that karmically sound? It does on the surface allow an interpretation of “an eye for an eye”. But there is no intention to retailiate. The spell works from the client out rather than focusing on the other person/people. It’s not akin to a hex or attack. But there is a very important reason why we don’t just cut the links. The main one being they tend to get reinstated by the other person. If someone considers you an enemy and projects negative intentions towards you, the situation may persist until they resolve the karmic link from their end.

An extreme example…if you had stalker and to avoid the stress, you moved house thinking “out of sight out of mind”, it wouldn’t necessarily change their intentions. Restraining orders would be applicable of course. But on a magickal level, you can remove the bond from your side…but over time they will reestablish the bond because it’s their issue. The only real way to stop it would be to resolve the karma and that’s why the spell works the way it does.

It doesn’t create negative karma. The key is the spell dissolves and resolves any negative karmic bond. The resolution of karma is in line with Universal Law – can allow the 3rd party to realign with Universal Law and actually solve the problem rather than fire fighting.

It may be the person at the source needs to resolve it to move on and develop and if you detroy the Karmic bond entirely, their option to evolve beyond it might be interrupted. Denying them their Karma would create negative karma!

The spell is bound to work only in alignment with Universal Law…so we have to trust to the Universe to resolve or dissolve as appropriate. We can’t decide what’s best for the other person. But the Universe can be trusted. We are all united by Universal Law (Dharma) which is the evolution spiritually of all things. All people. All creation.

Protection spells and reversals are not used to retaliate. I wrote them to ensure they couldn’t be compromised in any way by our emotions or intentions. Emotionally if someone hits you, you may want to hit them back rather than just protect yourself. So the spells are written to make sure we don’t inadvertantly cause harm in the heat of the moment. But instead work to establish harmony from the inside out.

It’s down to the Universe whether a bond can be dissolved or needs to be returned for resolution. If we think otherwise, it’s the ego talking. The Higher Self seeks harmony and balance; alignment with Universal Law.

All my workings follow this philosophy. I don’t use black magick. And I have studied and practiced magick for nearly 28 years…I don’t claim to be an authority but I definitely understand now principles I didn’t understand as a teenager!

I won’t do spells on 3rd parties or without the recipient’s consent. No spell should ever be done without the focus of that spell knowing about it. It’s very important – not only Karmically…but a spell done without someone’s knowledge or consent is far less likely to have any lasting result!

Even a spell for healing, if done without the subject’s consent would be black magick regardless of the caster’s intention; it would mean manipulation of their free will and that’s the kind of magick that always carries karmic debt. They say the road to hell is paved with good intentions and magickally that’s something you need to know and understand.

Most black magick is carried out by amateurs in the “name of love” for what the mage/witch believes is a good intention. But the fact they consider they know best is testament to the fact it’s the ego calling the shots. Not the Higher Will.

A good test is, if you want to do a spell for a third party but you want to hide the fact from them, there can’t be a truly karmically sound intention.

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The Magickal Journey | Self-Realisation | The Path of Wholeness | The Great Work | Spiritual Development | Enlightenment | Ascension | Individuation

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Today’s bathtime blog is about Magick…what it really is…and what it really isn’t!

Previous articles about my magickal work (Maya Magickal Spells & Personalised Initiation Programmes) have briefly described the actual definition of magick. But I think it deserves a full blog for those drawn to conscious spiritual development.

Sometimes Magick is called a mystery religion or cult. Or “The Black Arts”. The latter sounds scary but using the words “dark” or “black” around magick refers to the secrecy around it. In the wrong hands magick is dangerous but not in the way you may think. It requires facing yourself in all your truth – this can be challenging. And people with a higher than normal ego consciousness balance, may become egocentric; delusional – even paranoid. Because they appropriate universal experiences as personal and literally fall into the trap of thinking they’re “God’s Gift”. When due study and balanced experience would tend towards the conclusion that, everyone you meet is also God’s Gift and as Extraordinary and Special as you are. There can’t be room for racial, financial or situational based beliefs in Magick. These are the comfort blankets for those clinging to ego consciousness.

So Magick isn’t about being something you’re not or identifying as something that the ego resonates with. It is about being yourself. And this is often more a case of “cutting the crap” than it is of being a whizz with the tarot! It’s about becoming but becoming the truth of what you are. A truth that exists as a fundamental even if you aren’t conscious of it. It’s your reality…but tunes you into that most objective concept; “Truth as an abstraction of Consciousness”.

Magick is the path to Self-Realisation for those moved to reconnect in a personal sense with that abstract divinity that exists within, without and in all ways transcends us.

Magick means we are working (through any method; natural as well as supernatural) to align our actions, thoughts and feelings with our Higher Self: elevating our consciousness so that our motivation is to ACT on the promptings of the “Higher Will” rather than to REACT to promotings of the ego. It is a spiritual calling to Source. To manifest that Divine Source through all levels of “being” and for the good of all.

Magick is defined as the art of causing change to occur in accordance with Will. The “Will” is the intent of the Higher Self. This idea of the freedom to “do what you Will” has way too often been interpreted by the more hedonistic, less self-aware among us, to mean we can “do what we want”. That would be very primitive and ego based definition of Will. It would define “Want” or highlight our human flaws if anything. The Mage’s first lesson is to learn the difference.

The Higher Will is beyond “want” or “demand”. Those types of base desires based on manifesting instant satisfaction or the fulfillment of lower desires are typical attitudes of the Ego Self.

Ego based consciousness is an emotionally immature state that reflects a spiritually immature state. Magick is the path to Spiritual Maturity but it is reflected in our mental and emotional lives too so if someone seems badly adjusted emotionally, you can know that there is a spiritual and mental component to that imbalance. It’s important for any aspiring magician or mystic learn to recognise these red flags and to resolve them rather than to passively assume they will sort themselves out.

They say time heals…but it does depend what you do with that time!

Through magick we choose to consciously align ourselves with a more mature state that resonates more with the Divine. Now you may call that external expression of Divinity by a name or define it as an abstract concept. But when you experience moments in life where you are aligned with it (the Divinity within yourself is in harmony with the Divinity that is without), things go smoothly, you feel good, and there is a sense of purpose and deep validation that comes from that intimate connection experienced through Magick. It is unique and undeniable. But to experience it usual requires removal of impediments to Higher Consciousness. It’s not uncommon for a personal tragedy to seem to be the catalyst for a sense of deep spiritual communion during prayer. As if the mind is occupied with our misery enough that our spiritual Higher Mind is free from the usual background noise.

All experiences understood from a spiritual perspective have the potential for growth. It is a common complaint “how can you believe in God when bad things happen?”…well, how many drug addicts and alcoholics would there be if it was never possible to hit rock bottom. We may not know why bad things can happen to good people…but perhaps it’s just that we need to know, this is a level playing field. You can aspire to exceed yourself no matter what your outward situation and status. Spiritually, you are unique and possess potential; the same potential of the greatest evil or monumental saintliness. Spiritual, no one has a silver spoon and it could be argued the more challenging your life conditions are, the greater your potentional is.

Now your path itself is unique. It may be based around personal beliefs and practices; disciplines of religion or philosophy. Observed devotions and practices. There is no single road to Self-Realisation. There is only the goal of achieving fundamental Wholeness through our subjective and objective experiences and understanding. Aspiring to Wholeness is the only path to true happiness.

Through Mayastar Academy Online Natural Healing & Spiritual Development Courses I teach a variety of energy healing and meditation distance learning courses online. These are techniques that may add to your experience – or be a place to begin. These techniques can form a part of conscious spiritual development; and that was why I founded Mayastar in 2004.

My intention is to provide support & assistance to people in achieving alignment with their Higher Will. It is an example of me choosing my vocation in alignment with my Higher Will; of causing change to occur in accordance with my Will. And to support others on the path to Wholeness by my lifetime’s devotion to the process. My ego would probably feel safer with a 9-5 – but my soul would remain unfulfilled.

My life, thoughts, ideas, actions and beliefs are aligned with my Higher Will. Whether I am providing an initiation intensive, reiki attunement or tailored ritual intensive, my relationship with every client and student, reflects my higher intention. For my own journey, that’s how it has to be. And often my journey plays a part in the spiritual journey of another.

There are many other more mundane things that I have to do to make this possible though. I have to feed myself, keep a roof over my head, do my accounts, pay my bills and taxes, choose a diet that doesn’t hinder my work (some of my spells require a lot of dance – they are choreographed Tantric Shamanic Rituals – I couldn’t eat a heavy meal or too many carbs on a ritual heavy day). But these sacrifices for the perfection of my work are part of the work too. The good habits aren’t a sacrifice because they actually have benefits on other levels. But most importantly, they enable to manifest my “soul purpose”.

All these details are parts of that same magickal process and all essential to me being able to provide spiritual facilitation & service in accordance with my Higher Will. My decisions are made with that singularity of intention. Although my decision seems intellectual, the spiritual calling is my motivation. It’s much harder to explain and often harder to define our “destination” (destiny) because spiritual yearnings are different to other yearnings we experience. Our intuition develops as we go but using logic and intellect can be a safer starting point. A wooly intuitive desire could far more easily be confused with an ego based desire. That’s why you hear of people studying Magick. In the early stages, understanding our own motivations can be a bit of a minefield!

Of course there have been times in the past where I made choices that took me out of alignment with my higher intentions. We all do – magick is process of growth and often can mean having thr humility to learn by our own mistakes. Sometimes by “unlearning” our past immature assumptions or beliefs.

But as we practice, our self-awareness develops and as it does, we are increasingly called upon to make (sometimes hard) decisions. But what is consciousness, if not asking questions? When we are younger these crossroad moments can be harder on us; our ego has a loud voice but low aspirations! This can also be the case later in life if we have persisted in ego consciousness for a long time. It can feel like very hard work when we begin to move to the perspective of Higher Consciousness.

The process of magick is a lifestyle. It includes everything that forms part of your life “expression” and it is a life-long path. Not a few years in a coven. But many years of disciplined and focused application. Akin in many ways to Bhakti Yoga (Devotional Practice).

Is it really worth it you may ask? Well, if that’s a question, Magick probably isn’t your path. Magick is a way of life.

It isn’t something you achieve “as if by magick”; it’s the practice of following the path to Wholeness and in being of “one mind”.

It’s sometimes described as “the reconciliation of opposites” or “The Great Work” – these are very accurate names. But Self-Realisation is the one I prefer!

It’s important to remember that whatever path you choose or techniques you use, keeping yourself in alignment with your higher will encompasses all aspects of your life, all of the time.

We may recognise magickal proficiency by some external signs of psychic skills or talent in healing or spellcrafting. But the integration of our ego with our higher consciousness means our thoughts, feelings and behaviour all evolve too. The Whole Self is party to our development. And true Magick is the internal journey – the goal is always the spiritual aspiration.

We can find guidance externally but there isn’t an external authority because the process is deeply personal and absolutely unique. Although we may have relationships and connections with people that share similar goals and can offer support and encouragement, the inner process is only something you can do. It requires discipline and devotion. It requires a personal level of commitment to the process (faith and confidence) that will support us through challenging times.

Even if you’re working with a spiritual group or other group based around Self-Realisation, the journey to Wholeness is one we all make alone. And it is the only path to true happiness.

Xxx ALM (Maya)

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Psychic Attack | Abuse | Bullying | Energy Healing | Karmic Reversal | Protection Spells | Black Magick

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Bathtime Blogging with a Yoga Bath Bomb from Lush & sunset moodlights. Today’s blog…magick, psychic attack and protection.

The most requested spells and rituals I do for people are Reversal spells. By a long way this type of working (either as a preliminary preparation for other work or as a solution specific working), is what people need help with when they know that spiritually or psychically something is off…even if they’re not sure what it is.

Psychic attacks using black magick are extremely rare. But you need to consider what magick really is before understanding how it can help. Magick is defined as the art of causing change to occur in accordance with the will. So every act of will (conscious or unconscious) is an act of magick. When we focus on an intention we begin to take actions and prepare ourselves for a desired situation or outcome to manifest and the Universe backs us up. When our higher will is engaged in seemingly mundane activities, we are reinforcing our intention with action and changes can occur more quickly because we are literally aligning ourselves with our goal. This isn’t to do with good or evil…it’s more to do with aligning our actions and emotions with our thoughts and intentions. Magick is the way I do it but it does take training and commitment to learn. So I provide magickal services for others as part of my work.

Explaining how the will is aligned on all levels in order to create “magickal” change is a bit complex. There are so many variables in any situation that magick is a process of “reweaving”. But a simplified example might be, someone who wants to make more money. It would be kind of silly if they thought the way to do this was by gambling and using magick to give them better luck. They would really be sending the message by their actions that they want something for nothing. And that they won’t take an active role in achieving their goals. Whereas someone who genuinely aspired to improve their financial situation would look for jobs, do their accounts, perhaps study with a view to increasing their status in their existing job with the intention of earning money through promotion. The gambler may have success…but magick works with the individual and the gambler’s actions would be putting out the opposite message to his words: that he didn’t want change. This would mean any change that did manifest would be undermined by his own actions. And he may not even realise how his mindset was restricting him and ensuring he didn’t ever manifest the money he “thinks” he wants.

That’s important to remember. Magick always works. But it’s more effective, the results longer lasting and faster to manifest if the subject is serious about their goal and is aligned with the goal of their intention. Combining magick with practical action is clearly the most sensible approach. The biggest hindrance to spells…what may even undermine them…is the mindset of the subject of the spell. People say they want one thing but their actions reinforce the fact they want something else.

So you can see, the idea that someone’s doing black magick and attacking you is nonsensical – if there is no enemy within, no enemy without can exist! Trying to use magick in this way would be against the natural current; it would be like making water flow up hill!

But psychic attack is a common problem. It doesn’t involve someone performing black magick rituals or sticking pins in a voodoo doll or anything so elaborate. It can deliberate but also sometimes unconscious.

In previous blogs I have talked about Narcissistic Personality Disorders, Sociopathy, Psychopathy and Anti-Social Personalities. In common these traits mean a very ego centred motivation and sometimes a lack of self awareness. In common, these personality types have in common a tendency to blame external sources for their negative experiences. Some may be verbally abusive or physically abusive. Some will be pathological liars. Some will be very negative and draining. Others will be very intelligent manipulators. But in common they have a tendency to blame external circumstances or people for their any perceived problem. 

They carry grudges. They may actively “hate” and project negative intentions onto others. Or they may seem not to but you get a “vibe” from them. Such as the pathological martyr or saviour. They somehow can make any situation all about them without people noticing.

This is abusive behaviour – even if it can be unconscious. Though the effect of it in practical terms is undeniable and can be catastrophic. On a psychic level, it would considered no differently to using magick to manipulate another person against their will.  By mundane methods or negative intentions, people can perpetuate a psychic attack. They can be causing harm on a spiritual level and the victim often “feels” something is wrong but feels unable to identify the source and unable to resolve it. Magick can help to bring a proper solution to this kind of situation. As long as the subject of the spell genuinely wants this!

If someone is manipulating or abusing you, it’s often harder to perceive or accept when it’s not in an intimate relationship. In work situations or where a family member is causing the bad energy, it’s very easy for the “victim” to think it must be their own problem. That maybe they’re too sensitive. Maybe they’re not professional enough etc.

A Karmic Reversal spell is a safe and effective way of preventing the hindering influence of another or others from causing you any harm or restriction on an energetic level. It works from the subject out and simply put it dissolves any negative karmic bonds – reverses negative intentions, speeding up the karma if necessary for resolution or simply dissolving negative connections if that’s more effective. It isn’t fighting fire with fire. It’s really a way to bring resolution to the situation instead of deflecting or ignoring it. In many senses you can consider this kind of magick a healing kind – it’s healing an energy connection and allowing you to move forward.

You can find more information on how magick works on my website www.mayamagickal.net

Xxx

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Does Atypical Empathy Dispose One to Violence, Cruelty or Impulsivity? | Narcissism | Autism | Consciousness | Violence | Psychology | Philosophy | Wise Women | Witches | Hikikomori | Hermits | Mystics

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Bathtime blogging – continued pondering on the difference between ego based personalities and non-ego based…

It’s a curiosity to me that people with Narcissistic Personality Disorders…such as sociopathy and psychopathy, are described as of higher than average intelligence – as am I, as a higher functioning autistic. However, I find the explanation proposed as the root their tendency of narcissistic personality types to abusive or selfish behaviours doesn’t sit well with me.

It is proposed to be rooted in a physiological difference in the narcissistic brain which means their higher intellect usually comes with a deficiency in socialisation and that this is specifically expressed as a lack of empathy.

Why do I find this such an insufficient explanation? Because I am autistic. Specifically, I am Aspergers. My IQ is high. My need for social feedback is low and always has been. So why am I not a psychopath?

Autism is often undiagnosed in women because typically they learn to “fake it” better than men. Those are all sweeping generalisations of course but for the purpose of pondering are hopefully sufficient.

This apparent justification of a tendency to cruelty or violence due to a lack of the normal mechanism of empathy doesn’t make sense to me. It really doesn’t. If that was the underlying cause, autism would increase your risk of being psychopathic. But it doesn’t.

Also, after some self analysis, I can confirm that I do have empathy. But I think maybe I learnt it via more intellectual process than neurotypicals do.
I have never had a tendency to violence. I have always had very high principles and my family actually considered me an “authority” on moral issues from a very young age. I can work things out in a dispassionate way even while experiencing the emotions…somehow I experience them from a position of observation. The chances of me doing something impulsive or without self awareness are so remote as to be pretty much impossible for someone like me. So reacting to aggression with aggression doesn’t happen. It is a puzzle to me that some psychopaths can’t do this. And I think it’s rooted in emotional intelligence. It’s the point at which the autistic and the narcissist part ways.

I suppose my reputation as an “ice queen” comes from that seeming impassive view point. It could very look like I have no emotional reaction to emotional situations. Like there is a disconnect. But that’s only how it looks. I know how it feels and can describe it. That trademark autistic “blankness” doesn’t mean I have no empathy or no emotions…but it does mean I am less likely to act out or react impulsively.

It does mean by nature I am a bit of a shut in…a natural hermit. Some Hikikomori are high functioning autistics as well.

The tendency to emotional self reliance seems offensive to some people. But there have always been hermits. “Troubled geniuses”. In the past they were considered the spinsters, midwives, witch doctors, healers…they were sort of revered and feared.  But considered an important part of the human “tribe’; often as a bridge between the world and the metaphysical realith. We even consider witches to typically and traditionally be of this type. Same with mystics. In fact, I am so “normal” as the modern day hermit, I am nocturnal as well – something that was always attributed to people like me historically! Shamans, wild men, wise women, healers, counsellors…I decend “spiritually” from a long line of people who filled a similar place in society.

I tried to explain this to someone once…that my mind works in such an abstract way, that if I wanted to I could reason myself out of existence. That’s what hyper rationale is. It can sometimes look from the outside like people with autism act irrationally or think irrationally…in fact it’s the exact opposite and it can be a problem. Staying grounded is something I have to do consciously. I have to make normal stuff routine otherwise I might reason myself out of doing the things I need to do in order to only do things that use my brain!

I think most people with high functioning autism will naturally develop their own strategies for these things. I can’t spend my life studying and meditating but failing to eat or exercise or put the trash out. But my motivation for doing those things is probably very different to someone who is neurotypical. If I do my accounts properly and organise things properly, it means I don’t have to waste time thinking about things I think are mundane…things that seem “off my radar” in fact!

Anyway. Simply put, my mind works differently – but it’s not a disability to me – it’s more like an extra ability. My life is the way I like it. Those who know me understand me. Those who don’t are off my radar. Those who underestimate me or make assumptions about me tend to find me disturbing to be around!

But why would the increased intelligence, difference in empathy and social needs in Autism and Narcissism that are apparently similar, result in such different personality types?

All I can think is that the Narcissist perpetuates an immature emotional connection to their ego consciousness; they don’t mature emotionally the same way as others.

The Autistic doesn’t either. They seem to either move past it or never have it.

For my own part,  I have never rebelled…I never had tantrums…I never (even as a very small child) saw others as authority figures. The crazy independence was hard for my parents to deal with because it simply wasn’t possible to tell me what to do. Not because I was naughty…but because I really couldn’t be “corrected”.

When I think back, I think managing me would have been easier if they had approached me the way you approach training a dog! Because being told what to do or doing things without a reason or because the consequence was being told off weren’t deterrents to me!

I think Narcissistic personality types may seem to act similarly at times, but their motivation is so far alien to me, I don’t understand why they would be violent. It seems utterly nonsensical to me.

This has led me to conclude that perhaps the autistic spectrum and the narcissistic spectrum reflect the two sides of everyone’s mind. My autism puts me at one extreme…a psychopath is at the other end. I think maybe the less autistic you are, the more narcissistic you are. And there is a range we consider “normal” somewhere between the two.

More pondering required I think!

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Can a Narcissistic Mind Evolve a Conscience through Intellectualised Re-Framing of Life Experiences? | Consciousness | Narcissism | Higher Faculties | Love | Forgiveness | Judgement | Autism

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Bathtime Blogging…I am pondering a number of things at the moment. It began after my dad died…having aspergers seemed to allow me subjective and objective experience of his illness, his death, my own grief and the various ways of expressing grief that came to people around me that set me pondering…

Can a Narcissistic Mind Evolve a Conscience through Intellectualised Re-Framing of Life Experiences?

I don’t think anybody is better at life than others. All people are individual. Their potential is variable. So I don’t make observations to judge in any way, but literally as an observation. My asper brain intellectualises things and looks at the logic as if it’s a puzzle with a solution and not just a puzzle. So in articulating my considerations, I hope that they may set you pondering too!

The beginning of this train of thought was really initiated as I contemplated the different way in which I experience empathy as an Aspergirl compared to the experience of those around me. In the back of my mind was a concern that maybe I wouldn’t experience things “properly”.

When someone dies of cancer you get a warning. You take a journey with them. My dad had a very fast growing brain tumour. He lived 5 months after diagnosis. And that was WITH chemo slowing the tumour. The tumour was inoperable. It was the type that would have spread even if it could be slowed with radiotherapy and chemo. But even a non malignant brain tumour is fatal if it’s inoperable. So there was a journey of weeks for the diagnosis and then months of treatment. I am sure dad would have made the same decision about the chemo etc even if they had known it would only give him months…months instead of weeks. But even with a warning,  these things feel like they happen too quickly.

My dad had home hospice care and I saw him every day throughout. That was a good thing. I didn’t realise my mind was learning to accept the inevitable…I even wondered if my mind, specifically because of my autism, was able to accept it more easily because I couldn’t take any of it personally. And that’s where my questions began…would I experience death with my form of atypical empathy or was I at risk of being TOO rational.

I also considered perhaps my spiritual beliefs and the fact I could give healing to someone who was dying (Reiki and Violet Flame – both of which I teach through Mayastar). Did that give me a sense of being able to help someone to die peacefully, rather than react as if situation was all wrong and death was unnatural?

I continued to mull these things over. Looking at different personality types and considering their limitations, experiences and unique qualities.

I came away from this with the understanding that we all have a level of higher function (the ability to be objective and self aware), and we all have an ego. And both of these are present at different levels in different people…and they change over time. But how much can they change?

The ego doesn’t have the capacity for objectivity or self awareness. The ego really is the inner narcissist. It doesn’t develop emotionally beyond childish fears and tantrums. It demands external validation. And I think in people where one or other (subjective or objective mind) is dominant, they are “atypical”. Most people experience both to a degree and most people consciously continue to strive for a more objective understanding of their experiences as life goes on.

I think this shows up increasingly as people age. If they don’t move past their ego, they tend towards bitter. Sometimes almost paranoid. But generally they become antisocial as time goes on. In people we consider well adjusted, they balance this tendency to selfishness with an increased capacity for objective understanding – whether they pursue this consciously or it happens naturally probably depends on how balanced they were to begin with. These people seem to “mellow with age” and they are less likely to take on other people’s issues as personal or to consider life events as being “bad” or “wrong”. The exact opposite of the ego which takes everything personally.

Now, my autism may mean if anything I have a tendency to over rationalise – to the extent that some people find me kind of weird. Sometimes presenting a kind of blank slate. Often asking questions that some find intrusive. People who lie or who have a tend towards a narcissistic personality often take a dislike to people like me because we don’t provide them with the external validation or feedback they need. And we very well may ask them outright why their behaviour is as it is and they very well may not have the answers!

I don’t think you have to be autistic to run into this. Those people who persist in ego consciousness seem to “clash” with people a lot! They seem to ostracise themselves. Although I find this observation interesting, I find it hard to imagine how hard getting by in life must be if you are dependent on others to reinforce your sense of self…all the while feeling that you are entitled to that kind of attention. It’s almost like an addiction and I think the capacity of people whose ego is dominant (not to the extent of being classifiable as a narcissist but just more ego centred than the average person) must live on their nerves. Their capacity for experience of higher emotions like love; their capacity to forgive; their capacity for altruism; their capacity for feeling ok with themselves in many ways, is compromised. Their fear of not being accepted or of being judged is heightened. They may seem selfish and rude and arrogant…but scratch the surface and you find it’s all surface! The ego’s reasoned response to a question like “why do you feel a need to be rude to other people” is either going to begin “because they….” or “because I do”.

It’s led me to consider…without any answer…is it possible for a psychopath, sociopath or narcissist (all ego based personalities), to evolve beyond that selfish view point? To overcome the illusion of their own importance the ego insists upon? To develop a level of emotional maturity even without the normal capacity for empathy? Is it possible for a serial killer (as an extreme example), to feel true remorse? Genuinely and not just theoretically? (And I mean remorse…not regret!) Is it possible for extreme narcissistic personalities to learn to feel genuine remorse by reframing life experiences as an entirely intellectual process?

I really don’t know. But if you observe the reaction of people to serious life events…you can see they tend to swing between ego and higher function and find some balance. It’s normal for people to go through phases as they balance out.

I know there are people close to me who want to avenge me for things that have happened to me in the recent and distant past. They don’t think I should forgive. And sometimes I find it hard to explain…I haven’t forgiven in any real sense. Meaning, I haven’t set out to. But naturally over time have ceased to consider some things less and less important, until I naturally have “evolved” to a state of forgiveness. I think most people probably do this.

I personally can’t see the point of holding grudges against people I think are unworthy of them because I outgrew my connection to that person. They stayed as they were and I moved on. For me to blame them or be annoyed would be like being angry with a puppy for peeing on the new rug. It’s a puppy. I can’t reason with it “on a level”. And no matter how annoyed I am, it won’t make the puppy become human, apologise, clean the carpet and be like me. We can’t carry grudges or hold onto anger just because other people aren’t the same as us. Well, most of us would agree on that. The more narcissistic types probably wouldn’t. It’s very immature but the ego does think other people should be like we are otherwise any problems are their fault and they cause our problems. It sounds o absurd written down that I think evwn a narcissist would deny that train of thought. But their behaviour betrays them!

People who have caused me harm deliberately…abusive people and violent people; and one I would classify as a narcissist but could equally have a serious and untreated mood disorder. In fact the person in question claimed to have an undiagnosed mood disorder. But I think that was to justify their erratic behaviour or maybe even just to make themselves seem important! In fact their anger, compulsive lying and paranoia was classic for a narcissistic personality type and not for someone with clinical depression or bipolar disorder! They also claimed to be seeing a psychotherapist about their rage…and that was a verifiable lie. You can tell if a narcissist is lying by whether they are speaking or not!

Anyway, that is only my observation. I can’t diagnose those things and whatever their problem was, there’s nothing I can do about it and I wouldn’t be involved with someone like them. But because of their extremely strange and malicious behaviour, I do have to conclude that there’s no way I can take their issues personally; they have a problem. I can see how some people would find it hard not to take another person’s issues personally. Especially given the personal nature of some of the behaviour. So I can see that from the outside it looks so bad to other people that some feel there should be some kind of justice meted out…

I believe it is though. I don’t believe I need to be judge, jury or executioner for someone whose own personality is the bane of their existence. Karma is a component…but suffering from their own personality is also a punishment to them. They are their own worst enemies in many ways. Their lives are significantly diminished because of the way they think.

It may help that I can use magick in such situations to prevent being held back from sorting myself out by negative thoughts, intentions or actions. It’s such a common situation for the more emotionally mature that reversal spells form a very large part my ritual work for others (www.mayamagickal.net). I do consider that on a spiritual level, the destructive tendencies and negative intentions are akin to a intentional psychic attack and magick is a way to prevent you being caught up and unable to move forward. The immaturity of the ego leaves some volatile personality types with a kind of “emotional incontinence” that, I believe, causes harm and hindrance to victims of abusive relationships on an energetic level.

But after weighing up my personal experience and observations, the question remains after all my pondering: Can a narcissist learn to feel through an intellectualised process?

Perhaps my autism gives me a simplistic view and I am really not “getting it” – but it does seem to me that technically it should be possible. We all have two sides…and most people change as they become older and more experienced. Perhaps a lot of choices have to be made and perhaps we need an ideal to grow towards. So perhaps the narcissist falls at the first hurdle by not having the capacity to entertain an ideal! But, I still think technically it’s possible because we all have narcissistic qualities…and usually we do outgrow them. I’ve yet to observe a narcissist develop a conscience…but I do think technically it’s possible. Just very unlikely!

So endeth my bathtime blog of the day! Xxx

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Killing Moon Karmic Reversal 30 Day Ritual Intensive | With Triple Working Option | Ritual Cycle for this special will begin on the 12th May 2016

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This week I am running additional Killing Moon Cycles and this option is being included in the current Mayastar/Maya Magickal Gift Offers. So I’m putting up this information as a blog for those who might be interested in finding out more!

The Killing Moon Karmic Reversal Ritual Intensive is one of the most popular with Mayastar and Maya Magickal and I receive many enquries about this working and the potential uses; it is one of the most comprehensive ritual options I provide so I will tell you a little more about it based on customer enquiries regarding this option. You can find information on the ritual here www.mayamagickal.net/killingmoon.htm

One of the main areas people ask about is whether this spell would work for any kind of psychic attack; a psychic attack is any kind of directed negative ‘assault’ (often taking a very draining form) on the astral level. There is a misconception that psychic attack is always deliberate and is always supernatural in origin. In fact, emotional unstable people around us can effect psychic attacks unconsciously or deliberately. The working is very effective in clearing any connections that are formed to you by another’s negative choices. Regardless of how they are manifesting them; it is the intention that is key. The spell dissolves or resolves the link that this kind of connection forms rather than attacking the person. So in no sense is it a hex or a curse to be used in retaliation. But it’s great for healing yourself of the effects and also provides some protection.

Negative Karmic Bonds as explained above can be formed with people. But we can also form bonds that cause us conflict or disharmony that we fail to consciously release. Such as bad memories or negative habits we have had in the past. In addition, a supernatural component can present in cases where people have been in a bad situation or a negative place emotionally or spiritually…even physically. It can leave one vulnerable to what we call ‘hitchers’. Now hitchers come and go. Usually they are a nuisance and they can tend to perpetuate problems because they’re lower astral beings. To be clear, these are not demonic in any way – they just resonate with lower energies. They are essentially elemental beings and they are drawn to our negative experiences. Over time they can form a Negative Bond. Usually they come and go throughout our lives. But they can turn a normal situation into a complex one. The Killing Moon addresses this issue too.

The cleansing & healing effect of the Killing Moon is that which is noticed and reported as an unexpected side effect by clients. Of course it makes sense – as the working goes on, you are being ‘freed up’ from restrictive energies that may be compromising your energy flow. So the harmonising effect of the working shouldn’t be under estimated; I would go as far as to recommend it for use as a healing spell because so much of healing has to do with clearing out the rubbish before we work on drawing in the beneficial energies.

In that regard, the spell is also useful in any kind of work where you want to ultimately draw positive energies in. They all work better if you’ve cleared out the negative ones or any negative influences. Reversal spells are good for this, but the Killing Moon is the most comprehensive solution.

The option for the Triple Working has gained a lot of popularity; particularly for those who have a long standing issue or a problem that’s very complex and seems to be affecting more and more areas of their life. Sometimes it can be hard to pinpoint how or when it started but knowing the origin isn’t necessary; the spell is comprehensive enough to follow each ‘bond’ back to its source and either dissolve the bond or resolve the issue. The Triple Working would also be indicated in cases where the origin in known (or you have strong reason to suspect), or suspected to be supernatural or the result of ‘black magick’. As I said before, it’s not a retaliation spell, it’s resolving the problem by working with the natural state of harmony the Universe and all things tend towards. Black magick doesn’t do that therefore it’s unstable and its effects tend to be short lived. Working with the energy is like re-weaving the karmic fabric – not like trying to make water flow uphill. So the effects manifest more quickly; are more far reaching; and are essentially permanent.

Also, the Triple Working allows the energy to be focused on you, your professional life/business, your home/family – all at once. This is important in situations where what seemed to begin as a negative influence that was affecting you in some way, has developed to the point it’s affecting other areas of your life too. Negative and resistant energies can manifest in many ways, even if they are residual, they can, over time, create a ‘complex’ of low vibrational elements that can have very obvious and limiting results; exacerbating medical conditions for example; feelings of anxiety; feeling ungrounded. In this way it works as a reversal but can deal issues and resolve those issues on a karmic level for a permanent solution, rather than working on the symptoms. This is the case whether the negative effects relate to malicious people, limiting beliefs you have held in the past, destructive behaviours you seem to be drawn to and even bad ‘thinking habits’.

Although magickal change is permanent and occurs in real time, the effects will manifest gradually – but there will be changes very quickly and the changes are cumulative so it kind of builds momentum – as different areas are cleared, different areas are accessible for resolution. Some choose to repeat the working or take the triple option to speed results in this way. But also, negative influences will continue to come into our lives from time to time so some people like to take the KM cycle annually or every few months as a preventative kind of working.

The Ritual is also particularly useful for negative work environments, abusive relationships in the past, problems with grounding that may express as addictive or self-destructive behaviours, any malicious or intentional psychic attack whether it originates supernaturally or through use of black magick, or through natural means such as malicious intentions, jealousy etc. – even disgruntled business rivals (some people have the working performed for their business in fact).

As mentioned before, the source if any disharmony or negative influence doesn’t need to be identified before using this method as it works by tracing karmic bonds back to source from you and resolving or dissolving them. So you don’t need to focus on what’s happening or what caused it and how to fix it; the spell is constructed in such a way that it does that part for you.

This is not a hex or curse and can’t be used as one – it works by resolving any attachments to people, places and things of the past, present and future to prevent them manifesting hindrance or discord in your life. It can’t be used for revenge or malicious intentions. None of my work can.

The dissolution of negative karmic bonds doesn’t disconnect you from your life or undo your past, but can be used to facilitate moving on from the past without fetters; liberating you up to manifest change on all levels (physical, mental, emotional and spiritual); and always for the greater good.

The healing effect and a lifting of energy is usually noticed and reported at day 7-10 and increases during the ritual. Sometimes this is reported within a few days especially for those having a Triple Working.

Also, as the Triple option allows focus on different aspects at once, positive changes in the home, professional environment as well as personally tend to be reported early on and continue throughout and beyond the cycle!

A single working of the Killing Moon 30 Day Karmic Reversal Ritual for £300 (saving £300 on the usual price) | A triple working of the Killing Moon £750 (saving £1000 on the usual price) | For full details and to buy please go to www.mayastar.net/special.htm