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How Energy Healing & Reiki can be used to assist those who are terminally ill

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We tend to think of healing as a single level but relaxation, the reduction of stress, assistance in sleep and pain management can be helpful in those to are about to make the transition.

It also provides a powerful way to connect – and creates a relaxed environment in which to talk about things the dying person might feel unable to with others or in more clinical settings. That’s not to say it won’t be challenging! But it can be an opportunity to share love as a family that is unique to our regular experiences.

My dad died of cancer last year. An inoperable brain tumour; and being able to provide him with the benefits of Reiki and my counselling/psychoanalysis experience…and natural forms of treatment, was intensely beneficial for us both. Being able to offer support and guidance in a situation that seems otherwise may seem bleak is an opportunity to reclaim the sacred aspects of this unique time. An opportunity beneficial (potentially) to all involved.

Natural Healing techniques can help relieve symptoms; we may benefit from healing on a spiritual and emotional level. Knowing you’re terminally ill can make people depressed – it’s rather a monumental time and rather monumental news. And it’s not unusual to experience shock and the stages of grief (denial, anger, bargaining), when we hear the word “terminal”. But the shock part passes and we have to find a way to live with death. Something our life experience rarely prepares us for; it can make people feel unable to discuss the nitty gritty too – how death happens biologically. What to expect. What is a death rattle? Why do people who are dying usually go into a coma?

We can find these things out. And understanding the physical process can be reassuring. But creating an environment in which people feel they can connect and share in what is a very intimate experience…that’s the part no one teaches us! And I believe Reiki and sharing energy healing can be an excellent starting point for opening up and sharing our experiences and ideas together.

Death is a natural part of our lives – but we do tend to think of it as something that happens in a clinical setting with drips and medical staff…and ends with an anonymous phone call from a random doctor at 3am. We’ve stopped seeing it as being part of the cycle of life – and started to see aging and mortality as negative and to be avoided at all costs!

We are very distanced from our mortality in the modern world and this is emphasised in many ways by modern medicine…and probably also the fact many of us aren’t religious these days; also there is a way that even in some religions death is considered an inappropriate topic for discussion – or it’s discussed only in coded terms. The afterlife being focused on rather than death itself and the biological process of death.

Something important is lost in this I feel. Think back 100 or 150 years, people were used to seeing death first hand from an early age. Their family members usually died at home and often with the same treatments as end of life care provided now…counsellors instead of priests – but with morphine to control symptoms of the final days and hours.

If we saw this in our homes from a young age, we would undoubtedly understand death in a very different way. And while we consider such close encounters with the dying potentially depressing (tragic, unbelievable, despair inspiring) when they happen in the real world today, they don’t have to be. This modern perspective is rather new and our past understanding of the process can teach us a lot.

Death can be seen as part of a natural transition. The physical death of the body here marking its rebirth into the next world. A sacred experience when we see it from this perspective and allow ourselves to overcome our fears and resistance and to see…it may be messy or strange to us…so is the birth of babies! But we don’t have a problem seeing that as sacred. Death comes to all and yet we can go through most of our lives trying to remain “uninvolved”. I feel this is not only to our detriment but also to the detriment of those who are dying. And one day, that will apply to each of us.

Don’t be depressed…you will die one day; you will live on many others!

My dad received home hospice care during his transition and it opened my eyes in many ways to the very personal experience the dying person has. And how modern attitudes can be isolating and prevent a natural transition being experienced in a natural way by everyone involved.

There are some great books (especially those by Felicity Warner) about Soul Midwifery. And the Pagan Book of Living and Dying by Starhawk that offer some practical and philosophical ideas that can draw people together if things are experienced openly and this final journey considered something we take together and acknowledge for the sacred time it is.

I’m all for using Reiki as a complimentary therapy to assist in achieving a good/peaceful passing.

As I said, not all healing takes place on a physical level. The mental, spiritual and emotional benefits can be incredibly powerful for anyone involved – the person who is dying, the family and friends – Energy Healing can provide a way to share in the journey that can be powerfully healing for everyone.

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Bathtime blogging – continued pondering on the difference between ego based personalities and non-ego based…

It’s a curiosity to me that people with Narcissistic Personality Disorders…such as sociopathy and psychopathy, are described as of higher than average intelligence – as am I, as a higher functioning autistic. However, I find the explanation proposed as the root their tendency of narcissistic personality types to abusive or selfish behaviours doesn’t sit well with me.

It is proposed to be rooted in a physiological difference in the narcissistic brain which means their higher intellect usually comes with a deficiency in socialisation and that this is specifically expressed as a lack of empathy.

Why do I find this such an insufficient explanation? Because I am autistic. Specifically, I am Aspergers. My IQ is high. My need for social feedback is low and always has been. So why am I not a psychopath?

Autism is often undiagnosed in women because typically they learn to “fake it” better than men. Those are all sweeping generalisations of course but for the purpose of pondering are hopefully sufficient.

This apparent justification of a tendency to cruelty or violence due to a lack of the normal mechanism of empathy doesn’t make sense to me. It really doesn’t. If that was the underlying cause, autism would increase your risk of being psychopathic. But it doesn’t.

Also, after some self analysis, I can confirm that I do have empathy. But I think maybe I learnt it via more intellectual process than neurotypicals do.
I have never had a tendency to violence. I have always had very high principles and my family actually considered me an “authority” on moral issues from a very young age. I can work things out in a dispassionate way even while experiencing the emotions…somehow I experience them from a position of observation. The chances of me doing something impulsive or without self awareness are so remote as to be pretty much impossible for someone like me. So reacting to aggression with aggression doesn’t happen. It is a puzzle to me that some psychopaths can’t do this. And I think it’s rooted in emotional intelligence. It’s the point at which the autistic and the narcissist part ways.

I suppose my reputation as an “ice queen” comes from that seeming impassive view point. It could very look like I have no emotional reaction to emotional situations. Like there is a disconnect. But that’s only how it looks. I know how it feels and can describe it. That trademark autistic “blankness” doesn’t mean I have no empathy or no emotions…but it does mean I am less likely to act out or react impulsively.

It does mean by nature I am a bit of a shut in…a natural hermit. Some Hikikomori are high functioning autistics as well.

The tendency to emotional self reliance seems offensive to some people. But there have always been hermits. “Troubled geniuses”. In the past they were considered the spinsters, midwives, witch doctors, healers…they were sort of revered and feared.  But considered an important part of the human “tribe’; often as a bridge between the world and the metaphysical realith. We even consider witches to typically and traditionally be of this type. Same with mystics. In fact, I am so “normal” as the modern day hermit, I am nocturnal as well – something that was always attributed to people like me historically! Shamans, wild men, wise women, healers, counsellors…I decend “spiritually” from a long line of people who filled a similar place in society.

I tried to explain this to someone once…that my mind works in such an abstract way, that if I wanted to I could reason myself out of existence. That’s what hyper rationale is. It can sometimes look from the outside like people with autism act irrationally or think irrationally…in fact it’s the exact opposite and it can be a problem. Staying grounded is something I have to do consciously. I have to make normal stuff routine otherwise I might reason myself out of doing the things I need to do in order to only do things that use my brain!

I think most people with high functioning autism will naturally develop their own strategies for these things. I can’t spend my life studying and meditating but failing to eat or exercise or put the trash out. But my motivation for doing those things is probably very different to someone who is neurotypical. If I do my accounts properly and organise things properly, it means I don’t have to waste time thinking about things I think are mundane…things that seem “off my radar” in fact!

Anyway. Simply put, my mind works differently – but it’s not a disability to me – it’s more like an extra ability. My life is the way I like it. Those who know me understand me. Those who don’t are off my radar. Those who underestimate me or make assumptions about me tend to find me disturbing to be around!

But why would the increased intelligence, difference in empathy and social needs in Autism and Narcissism that are apparently similar, result in such different personality types?

All I can think is that the Narcissist perpetuates an immature emotional connection to their ego consciousness; they don’t mature emotionally the same way as others.

The Autistic doesn’t either. They seem to either move past it or never have it.

For my own part,  I have never rebelled…I never had tantrums…I never (even as a very small child) saw others as authority figures. The crazy independence was hard for my parents to deal with because it simply wasn’t possible to tell me what to do. Not because I was naughty…but because I really couldn’t be “corrected”.

When I think back, I think managing me would have been easier if they had approached me the way you approach training a dog! Because being told what to do or doing things without a reason or because the consequence was being told off weren’t deterrents to me!

I think Narcissistic personality types may seem to act similarly at times, but their motivation is so far alien to me, I don’t understand why they would be violent. It seems utterly nonsensical to me.

This has led me to conclude that perhaps the autistic spectrum and the narcissistic spectrum reflect the two sides of everyone’s mind. My autism puts me at one extreme…a psychopath is at the other end. I think maybe the less autistic you are, the more narcissistic you are. And there is a range we consider “normal” somewhere between the two.

More pondering required I think!

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Bathtime Blogging…I am pondering a number of things at the moment. It began after my dad died…having aspergers seemed to allow me subjective and objective experience of his illness, his death, my own grief and the various ways of expressing grief that came to people around me that set me pondering…

Can a Narcissistic Mind Evolve a Conscience through Intellectualised Re-Framing of Life Experiences?

I don’t think anybody is better at life than others. All people are individual. Their potential is variable. So I don’t make observations to judge in any way, but literally as an observation. My asper brain intellectualises things and looks at the logic as if it’s a puzzle with a solution and not just a puzzle. So in articulating my considerations, I hope that they may set you pondering too!

The beginning of this train of thought was really initiated as I contemplated the different way in which I experience empathy as an Aspergirl compared to the experience of those around me. In the back of my mind was a concern that maybe I wouldn’t experience things “properly”.

When someone dies of cancer you get a warning. You take a journey with them. My dad had a very fast growing brain tumour. He lived 5 months after diagnosis. And that was WITH chemo slowing the tumour. The tumour was inoperable. It was the type that would have spread even if it could be slowed with radiotherapy and chemo. But even a non malignant brain tumour is fatal if it’s inoperable. So there was a journey of weeks for the diagnosis and then months of treatment. I am sure dad would have made the same decision about the chemo etc even if they had known it would only give him months…months instead of weeks. But even with a warning,  these things feel like they happen too quickly.

My dad had home hospice care and I saw him every day throughout. That was a good thing. I didn’t realise my mind was learning to accept the inevitable…I even wondered if my mind, specifically because of my autism, was able to accept it more easily because I couldn’t take any of it personally. And that’s where my questions began…would I experience death with my form of atypical empathy or was I at risk of being TOO rational.

I also considered perhaps my spiritual beliefs and the fact I could give healing to someone who was dying (Reiki and Violet Flame – both of which I teach through Mayastar). Did that give me a sense of being able to help someone to die peacefully, rather than react as if situation was all wrong and death was unnatural?

I continued to mull these things over. Looking at different personality types and considering their limitations, experiences and unique qualities.

I came away from this with the understanding that we all have a level of higher function (the ability to be objective and self aware), and we all have an ego. And both of these are present at different levels in different people…and they change over time. But how much can they change?

The ego doesn’t have the capacity for objectivity or self awareness. The ego really is the inner narcissist. It doesn’t develop emotionally beyond childish fears and tantrums. It demands external validation. And I think in people where one or other (subjective or objective mind) is dominant, they are “atypical”. Most people experience both to a degree and most people consciously continue to strive for a more objective understanding of their experiences as life goes on.

I think this shows up increasingly as people age. If they don’t move past their ego, they tend towards bitter. Sometimes almost paranoid. But generally they become antisocial as time goes on. In people we consider well adjusted, they balance this tendency to selfishness with an increased capacity for objective understanding – whether they pursue this consciously or it happens naturally probably depends on how balanced they were to begin with. These people seem to “mellow with age” and they are less likely to take on other people’s issues as personal or to consider life events as being “bad” or “wrong”. The exact opposite of the ego which takes everything personally.

Now, my autism may mean if anything I have a tendency to over rationalise – to the extent that some people find me kind of weird. Sometimes presenting a kind of blank slate. Often asking questions that some find intrusive. People who lie or who have a tend towards a narcissistic personality often take a dislike to people like me because we don’t provide them with the external validation or feedback they need. And we very well may ask them outright why their behaviour is as it is and they very well may not have the answers!

I don’t think you have to be autistic to run into this. Those people who persist in ego consciousness seem to “clash” with people a lot! They seem to ostracise themselves. Although I find this observation interesting, I find it hard to imagine how hard getting by in life must be if you are dependent on others to reinforce your sense of self…all the while feeling that you are entitled to that kind of attention. It’s almost like an addiction and I think the capacity of people whose ego is dominant (not to the extent of being classifiable as a narcissist but just more ego centred than the average person) must live on their nerves. Their capacity for experience of higher emotions like love; their capacity to forgive; their capacity for altruism; their capacity for feeling ok with themselves in many ways, is compromised. Their fear of not being accepted or of being judged is heightened. They may seem selfish and rude and arrogant…but scratch the surface and you find it’s all surface! The ego’s reasoned response to a question like “why do you feel a need to be rude to other people” is either going to begin “because they….” or “because I do”.

It’s led me to consider…without any answer…is it possible for a psychopath, sociopath or narcissist (all ego based personalities), to evolve beyond that selfish view point? To overcome the illusion of their own importance the ego insists upon? To develop a level of emotional maturity even without the normal capacity for empathy? Is it possible for a serial killer (as an extreme example), to feel true remorse? Genuinely and not just theoretically? (And I mean remorse…not regret!) Is it possible for extreme narcissistic personalities to learn to feel genuine remorse by reframing life experiences as an entirely intellectual process?

I really don’t know. But if you observe the reaction of people to serious life events…you can see they tend to swing between ego and higher function and find some balance. It’s normal for people to go through phases as they balance out.

I know there are people close to me who want to avenge me for things that have happened to me in the recent and distant past. They don’t think I should forgive. And sometimes I find it hard to explain…I haven’t forgiven in any real sense. Meaning, I haven’t set out to. But naturally over time have ceased to consider some things less and less important, until I naturally have “evolved” to a state of forgiveness. I think most people probably do this.

I personally can’t see the point of holding grudges against people I think are unworthy of them because I outgrew my connection to that person. They stayed as they were and I moved on. For me to blame them or be annoyed would be like being angry with a puppy for peeing on the new rug. It’s a puppy. I can’t reason with it “on a level”. And no matter how annoyed I am, it won’t make the puppy become human, apologise, clean the carpet and be like me. We can’t carry grudges or hold onto anger just because other people aren’t the same as us. Well, most of us would agree on that. The more narcissistic types probably wouldn’t. It’s very immature but the ego does think other people should be like we are otherwise any problems are their fault and they cause our problems. It sounds o absurd written down that I think evwn a narcissist would deny that train of thought. But their behaviour betrays them!

People who have caused me harm deliberately…abusive people and violent people; and one I would classify as a narcissist but could equally have a serious and untreated mood disorder. In fact the person in question claimed to have an undiagnosed mood disorder. But I think that was to justify their erratic behaviour or maybe even just to make themselves seem important! In fact their anger, compulsive lying and paranoia was classic for a narcissistic personality type and not for someone with clinical depression or bipolar disorder! They also claimed to be seeing a psychotherapist about their rage…and that was a verifiable lie. You can tell if a narcissist is lying by whether they are speaking or not!

Anyway, that is only my observation. I can’t diagnose those things and whatever their problem was, there’s nothing I can do about it and I wouldn’t be involved with someone like them. But because of their extremely strange and malicious behaviour, I do have to conclude that there’s no way I can take their issues personally; they have a problem. I can see how some people would find it hard not to take another person’s issues personally. Especially given the personal nature of some of the behaviour. So I can see that from the outside it looks so bad to other people that some feel there should be some kind of justice meted out…

I believe it is though. I don’t believe I need to be judge, jury or executioner for someone whose own personality is the bane of their existence. Karma is a component…but suffering from their own personality is also a punishment to them. They are their own worst enemies in many ways. Their lives are significantly diminished because of the way they think.

It may help that I can use magick in such situations to prevent being held back from sorting myself out by negative thoughts, intentions or actions. It’s such a common situation for the more emotionally mature that reversal spells form a very large part my ritual work for others (www.mayamagickal.net). I do consider that on a spiritual level, the destructive tendencies and negative intentions are akin to a intentional psychic attack and magick is a way to prevent you being caught up and unable to move forward. The immaturity of the ego leaves some volatile personality types with a kind of “emotional incontinence” that, I believe, causes harm and hindrance to victims of abusive relationships on an energetic level.

But after weighing up my personal experience and observations, the question remains after all my pondering: Can a narcissist learn to feel through an intellectualised process?

Perhaps my autism gives me a simplistic view and I am really not “getting it” – but it does seem to me that technically it should be possible. We all have two sides…and most people change as they become older and more experienced. Perhaps a lot of choices have to be made and perhaps we need an ideal to grow towards. So perhaps the narcissist falls at the first hurdle by not having the capacity to entertain an ideal! But, I still think technically it’s possible because we all have narcissistic qualities…and usually we do outgrow them. I’ve yet to observe a narcissist develop a conscience…but I do think technically it’s possible. Just very unlikely!

So endeth my bathtime blog of the day! Xxx

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18th August 2015 – Happy days friends! Have had a lovely day to day.  Dad’s recovering well after the chemo.  It’s kind of odd because the chemo has knackered him but some of his brain tumour symptoms (numbness on his left hand especially), seemed worse. But the numbness in his face is reduced.  When they did the radiotherapy and chemo intensive, they obviously did some tests on the tumour type to see if it will respond to the treatment and I’ve been giving him energy healing – part of my Soul Midwifery duty – which is an absolute honour…challenging for sure, but any way we get to express our love for those we love in this life is something to be treasured…for sure, I think my hippieness is rubbing off on everyone right now.  Even Spider seems supremely snuggly and mellow…but that might just be because I’m so fluffy and cute! (No disputing that eh?!).

Anyway, they said the intensive therapy might make all the symptoms worse and knackered him out badly at first and we’d have to wait to see how it settled in the weeks after it.  Some people in his position at his age and with his type of cancer and its location, wouldn’t be able to complete a course of chemo – they might not even be able to begin a course if they were not in good health in all other ways. At first, throughout the chemo and radiotherapy daily thing, he was fine – his symptoms reduced massively and his energy was fine.  He’s been making stuff out of wood (he’s always making stuff!) – doing my garden and growing veggies and stuff.  Towards the end he was getting tired but in that kind of achy way you have if you’ve got a bad cold, except without the cold!  Now it’s over a week since the chemo/radiotherapy intensive finished and the numbness did start getting worse again so they increased his steroids to try to reduce swelling around the tumour (caused by the radiotherapy); unfortunately that messed with his sleep and he felt much worse for a few days.  To the point he even wondered if he’d recover or whether he was on the home straight.  We all discuss these things openly though and I think that really helps everyone – it’s where my autism comes in extremely handy because I can facilitate a practical discussion about things that other families might find more difficult. 

I can be ‘involved’ but at the same time my brain can take a very objective view and that can be helpful for keeping perspective and making sure everyone’s on the same page.

I have to say, as my life goes on, I find my Aspergers to be more and more of an asset! I know there are people that think it’s just a ‘genius gene’ thing or that it’s a sign of an ‘old soul’ incarnated – or even a higher being incarnating for a purpose.  I don’t know – I know it makes me different to other people in some ways.  But the blessings that come with it far outweigh any challenges!  So I’m thanking my lucky stars all the time for my uniqueness; and really appreciating the uniqueness of everyone else.  It’s like – everyone’s one six billion, and it’s an amazing thing that we can all be so unique and yet, have so much in common and so much to share.  It really is a beautiful thing.  So…remember…

YOU ARE AN EXTRAORDINARY PERSON, JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!

My personal spiritual view means I view each individual as an expression of a single Source that many would call ‘God’.  And no matter how flawed or imperfect, there is a connection between us all because of our common Source; and that Source is perfect; on some level we all are already perfect – and we spend our lives kind of working out ways to ‘cut the crap’ so we can express that perfection within us a bit more and in all kinds of ways.

Anyway…back on topic – as I said in yesterday’s blog, it will be a while before we know how well the chemo and radiotherapy worked but because the steroids messed up his sleep dad’s felt worse for a few days.  But he got a really good night’s sleep yesterday and today spent the day with my sister. Then I went round and we jammed for a while and had a laugh.  Then my honey got back from work and joined us.  I know it’s probably ‘eek’ to some, but I’m sooooo loved up I can’t help singing his praises every chance I get! He’s absolutely the kindest person I’ve ever met.  He’s honest and straightforward…and as my
sister pointed out…the first long term relationship I’ve had where my partner was as independent, dependable, straight talking and hard working as I am.  She’s right.  He really is good for me!   If I ever sat and wrote a list about my requirements for a man, Elvis/Spider wouldn’t have matched the list.  But he makes me happy and he’s my equal in ways that my partners before never have been.

I will be writing a further blog about that actually – the blog earlier this month about Covert Narcissistic Personality Disorder – I read back over it and realised that I’d not explained very well the gist of it, the red flags, what you can do about it and what you can’t do about it.  Also, I have to admit that when I posted it, my comments related solely to my recent ex – but he’s not the first ex I have had that would tick so many of the boxes and some of the similarities between past partners really show up.  But mostly, I want to write an article about abuse and abusers.  A Covert Narcissist can manipulate a person in ways they don’t identify as abuse at all – and only looking back do you see there was any kind of systematic attempt to control or manipulate.  And there are many forms of abuse but the effects are devastating.  Again, I can thank my autism for allowing me to experience the ‘recovery’ (for wont of a better word), subjectively but also to intellectualise it and to draw a line under it in a way that might be harder for others.  But it’s something I have studied and something that interests me.  I have first hand experience too.  And I’m happy to share what I’ve learned through personal experience, study and professionally.  Not just because I think the information can help others who may be experiencing problems or trying to process the fall out of problems in the past, but because of the nature of my work, I consider the energetic/karmic component to such situations.

In magick we consider any act of will, an act of magick.  So if someone intentionally punches you in the face to hurt you, they have done the same thing as someone who plants a hex bag on your car and hopes you’ll run into trouble.  The intention is what makes these things the same.  And that’s why when it comes to resolving things, as a witch and holistic teacher, I would consider that someone suffering after the trauma of an abusive relationship (whatever kind of abuse it was), if possible should seek help with the symptoms of the anxiety or depression from a medical professional – even if it’s to find a good counsellor and you’re averse to trying any medications even for a limited time.  But also, I’d recommend they learn and practice energy healing and meditation (Kundalini Reiki, Avalonian Alignment – particularly good for this); and if they felt it would help and would be appropriate for them, there are magickal options that I provide that can assist to resolve karmic imbalance, help you ground and protect yourself and reverse negative energies.  And all of these things combine to work on your situation in different ways; you’re getting support and reassurance from different areas as well as empowering yourself with new skills and information.  I think that’s important.

Anyway…I seem to be whittering on!  I was just a bit disappointed when I re-read the earlier blog I wrote about CNPD because it didn’t really give the information I had intended it to.  So I may give that an edit when I get down to writing an article.

In the meantime – there are some great vlogs on youtube explaining the different kinds of antisocial behavioural issues people have and how to deal with them – what to do in practical terms if you find yourself a victim of them.  And for those interested in learning meditation and self healing techniques you can find information on http://www.mayastar.net/courses.htm – and for magickal options http://www.mayamagickal.net XX

Better get on.  I’ve extended the 24 Gift Offer for the Magickal Shaman Lightworker course due to the popularity!  It’s a wonderful system and I highly recommend it.  If you’re interested you can find the Gift Offer information at http://www.mayastar.net/gift.htm 

So…there’s my work finished for the night! A little temple work to complete in the morning but I’m going to chill out, have some lemonade (on the master cleanser!), and then wake up my honey as he’s got an early start this morning.

Happy days and love to all XXXX Kisses XXXX And thanks to those who have continued to follow my blog and social media through last year.  It was kind of a ‘fallow period’ for me and I spent a lot more time meditating and in prayer than usual…in fact, I would say for about six months I was actually very introverted.  I tend to be quite an introvert but not for extended periods…but I guess there was a lot going on in my personal life and it was a transitional period and I seemed to do an awful lot of reading too.  I’m sure it will all be useful for my work over the coming years.  There’s never been a time I haven’t loved the work I do through Mayastar and Maya Magickal – if anything, over time I’ve grown to understand it and love it in more ways.  And of course, my students and clients are always the most fabulous people because they are people that are taking charge of their lives…making changes…empowering themselves energetically and through study.  Really wonderful ❤  Deep gratitude to everyone who has been a part of Mayastar…my friends, family, students and clients….it's always appreciated and I think everyone shares in 'good' in different ways XXXX  Happy happy happy happy days! X

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17th August 2015 – I’ve been awful at updating my blog…so sorry to those who follow it!  Most updates get posted on the FB before anything else so if you’re not already subscribed, please follow on http://www.annalouisemay.net

I’ve had tons of enquiries lately for magickal resolution of problems with psychic attack, suspected psychic attack – or any situation where you have been involved in an abusive relationship or have experienced a period of low energy, or negative thinking that you consider has become something like a vicious cycle.

Magickally speaking, these situations are identical; the source of the ‘attack’ or the identity of the ‘attacker’ doesn’t need to be known or defined in order to resolve the problem using magick.  If the problem is long standing or something you feel has become complex in that one problem has drawn new problems to you and this has continued over a period until the situations such a ‘mess’ that you can’t really work out what started it in the first place!  Well, often what starts the situation

in the first place might be resolved, but negative effect of it may not have been cleared with the resolution of the original problem simply because the situation became too complex.

I receive many emails from people about this and it’s clear they want to do something to turn it around but feel they need to justify their position – or explain how it happened.  I would like to reassure you, you don’t need to justify yourself and you don’t need to work out how the situation came about.  Magickally, what I do best is solve problems by reweaving the karmic bonds as they currently stand.  If the client wants to analyse the situation independently for any personal reason, that’s fine and that’s up to them and something they may feel useful to them.  But it’s not something that’s necessary for me to do in order to solve the problem quickly and effectively.

There are many solution options and they are always tailored to the individual so if you have any questions or are considering whether magick might assist you in the situation you’re experiencing, please email me mayastar.net@gmail.comand I’d be happy to advise.  You can also find out more information about magickal options, how magick works and my experience personally and professionally at http://www.mayamagickal.net X

On a less work related note…things have been a little hectic!  I’ve been having the time of my life (cue for a song and dancing montage from the 80s!) with Spider (my now ‘official’ boyfriend).  I’ve known him for quite a while through my dad so kind of as a friend.  And there’s no argument, he’s packing an illegal amount of gorgeousness!

I know it may sound just a little insane…if you’re anyone who isn’t a Pre-Raphaelite Princess living a defiantly bohemian lifestyle!…but, it’s true.  Elvis lives in my street.  And I’m dating him.  Not only that, but he thinks I’m lovely.  Even when I’ve just woken up.  Even when it’s pushing 30 degrees outside and I’m wilting in humidity.  Even if I’m having a totally hormonal bitch fit.  Even when I’m struggling to find my key while I sing Lana Del Rey songs with my autoharp.  He also enjoys the whole fairyland experience…even if I’m playing Patience & Prudence on a perpetual loop (though I suppose that’s kinda #TateandViolet #AHS romantic really!).

Yes.  He really is fabulous.  We’re currently at war however…seeing who can graffiti the other one while they’re asleep.

But he’s upped the ante because now it’s escalated to notes hidden in pockets and waking up to find your BF wrote I LOVE YOU all over your patio in chalk while you slept.  Yep.  We’re sickly sweet.  We’re worse than teenagers when it comes to being loved up!

We’re also both very practical so that we get to make the most of the time we have…whatever work I have I schedule it.  He is self employed so we work our schedules in such a ways that any free time we have matches up.  Though I’m just as likely to bump into him round my dad’s.  Dad’s totally knackered at the moment from either the chemo or the radiotherapy but we’re all close and practical and between family and friends, we’re staying a step ahead.  It is strange…life with a ‘lifer’ – my sister and I even said, it’s going to be weird when dad dies because it could be months or even years off depending how he recovers from the aggressive chemo/radiotherapy course he completed.  So whenever it does happen, we were kind of joking saying that, even if it’s 18 months from now, we’ll still be standing about saying “I know he had a terminal brain tumour and all, but you just don’t expect it!”.  I suppose that’s the odd thing about death.  We all know we are going to and most people don’t want to think about it.  Being a lifer or living with a lifer forces you to…and when people are able to talk openly about it and how it may play out and how they feel about it and stuff, it makes a natural process feel all the more natural.

Anyway, dad’s mood continues to be buoyant and he doesn’t actually feel ill at all – just really weak as if he was coming down with something or had just come out of an anaesthetic.  The Violet Flame Energy and Usui Reiki energy seem to suit him best and over the course of a day he can get up and get about a bit.  Just carefully!  But we need to wait a while to see how things settle over the next few weeks.  Apart from the weakness, his symptoms of the tumour itself have either reduced or stayed the same rather than got worse and they were getting worse quite quickly before the intensive chemo.  So the chemo/radiotherapy has definitely done some good – either it’s slowed the tumour but it’s possible that once the swelling around the area dies down, it may have shrunk it and as his energy returns over the next few weeks we’ll have a better idea of how successful it was.  And whether he wants to continue with that kind of treatment etc.  There’s no getting away from it with things like cancer…there has to be a lot of discussion about things that other people might find distasteful or morbid.  But it’s a good thing in ways that people who haven’t experienced it probably won’t understand.  People really pull together.  And people are really amazing when it comes down to it! XX

I know it sounds really hippie, but people really love each other and I think people really come into their own whenever and wherever they have the opportunity to express that love. XX

Note: Sorry no photoshoots lately…many planned for later in the year but, some nice selfies and pix from my moby dotted about to make this blog look prettier! XXX

Much love to ❤ M

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