Archive | May 2016

How do I remember life before life…am I remembering #heaven?

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https://youtu.be/Azev7P4aIYM

NEW VID | https://youtu.be/Azev7P4aIYM | #SoftSpeaking #ASMR #WhisperingWitch. How do I remember life before life…am I remembering #heaven?. New #Whispering #Witch #Nocturnal #Heart to Heart.

Am I a #Starseed? #Indigo Child? #EarthAngel? #Witch? #Pleiadian? #Lightworker? #ThirdGender? #Shaman? #TemporalLobeEpilepsy #TLE #Aspergers #HighFunctioningAutism #Asper #Aspie #Aspergirl

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Anna Louise May (Mayastar) Whispering Witch YouTube Channel | An Invitation & Gratitude ♡

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I’m just uploading my latest Whispering Witch video to my youtube channel. It’s about applications for the Goddess Aradia Spell which is on the current special offer…but I had to end it with a massive THANK YOU to those people who are watching my videos, liking them, giving me feed back and subscribing to the channel at www.youtube.annalouisemay.net

I was really nervous about using this medium because I have Aspergers (a type of higher functioning autism) and sometimes it means, I don’t want to talk.  I couldn’t see a way I would be able to make a channel I could use consistently in a way that would be useful. Before my dad died last year, it was something I told him I really needed to do as my business is online and as other networks are become less useful, youtube has gone from strength to strength. I wondered if maybe I might even be able to just use it post up some of my music…but couldn’t see a way of using it that would be particularly useful for my work given my limitations.

Well…the ASMR trend was the answer. And although the channel’s only been running a month, or 3 weeks, it has 45 subscribers. I don’t pay to advertise it or anything – I so share it on my other networks – but to put that in context, my WordPress Blog which I spend a lot more time on, has 30 followers.  It does get more views but people don’t tend to subscribe.

Some of the videos I’ve posted have had a much higher number of views than I would have expected. And when I happened upon the ‘analytics’ page on youtube recently I was stunned to find almost 6000 minutes of view time has been racked up in the short time the channel’s been running.

I’ve had good feed back and I’m surprised that I’ve found a niche I can cater to; my style of vlogging is not typical but it’s gone down well – much better than I hoped.

So I post every night. And I will continue to. And thank you sooooo much to those who are already watching my channel…thank you to those who have shared it with other people…thank you for the feedback and thank you for staying tuned. I’m really, really pleased and surprised.

I would be most grateful to anyone who would share this with their friends…anyone who might be interested in my work. I will quote from the ‘blurb’ that comes up in the info area of my blogs and tells you a bit about it…

“Nocturnal Heart to Heart style vlog in ASMR soft speaking format from ALM, the Whispering Witch.

A bit about me, my vlog & the format I use…

I have Aspergers (a type of high functioning autism) means I’m more comfortable using ASMR “whispered conversation”. The mutual increased focus this initiates allows a more intimate communication & natural connection.

My intention is to use whispered conversation to provide a unique & informal style that will be relaxing to watch, pleasant to hear & with subjects accessible to viewers.

PLEASE wear headphones! (straining to hear a computer speaker isn’t relaxing!)

I plan to upload various vids; some may be general or personal updates; others may be more informative, based around my spiritual & magickal work;  general chats & reviews. Also, ‘streams of consciousness’…with no fixed ‘subject’.

Please be aware, I have photosensitive epilepsy and when it gets late and I’m winding down, sometimes this affects me so I tend to wear sunglasses indoors – it’s not an attempt to look extremely cool! That’s just a side effect! I’m aware this looks kind of weird to some people but it means I don’t need meds to control seizures so I use what works for me and doesn’t have side effects.

NOTE: Although Whispering is used in ASMR, I use this technique because it is more comfortable for my autism & is a natural part of my night when I’m winding down for bed. More info on my intro vid – https://youtu.be/dNPMSkX5q9I

If this sounds at all compelling, please tune in and please share the love! XXX

With blessings,
ALM (Mayastar) aka The Whispering Witch

Maya Magickal Update | Price Increases for Magickal Intensives | Killing Moon Karmic Reversal | LightBody Activation Initiation Programme

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The price increases for Magickal Intensives will take effect from June.  The options affected most significantly are those that are popular to the point that I’m over-booked now more months than I’m not!

So the Killing Moon Karmic Reversal 30 Day Ritual Intensive – www.mayamagickal.net/killingmoon.htm which is currently £600 for the full 30 days, will be increased to £800 after the June cycle begins.

The LightBody Activation Initiation Intensive (which is a 21 day programme) detailed atwww.mayamagickal.net/healingintensives.htmwill also be increased from £600 to £800.

Magickal Intensives that include either or both of these options will also be affected. These can be found at www.mayamagickal.net/magickalintensives.htm

These changes will be taking effect in a matter of days so if you’re considering taking any of the options affected buying now rather than later would be recommended if you wanted to take advantage of the existing prices.

Additionally, if you would like information regarding reversal spells, psychic self defence, psychic attack and protection, as well as the details on the website that can be found at the links above, you may also wish to visit my blog at www.wordpress.annalouisemay.net where there are a number of articles that expand on the information on the site; the same goes for initiation work, self realisation and magick in general.  You can also find articles on my channel at www.youtube.annalouisemay.net.

Gratitude as a Way of Life

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Gratitude is often cited as an essential part of the process of manifesting. When we talk about manifesting there is always a contingent that thinks it’s wishful thinking. Perhaps even delusional.

There is a contingent of people who believe in hardship and suffering – considering these things more “real” than positive experiences, happiness and a sense of wellbeing. Not realising the effect their focus has on their perception. And on their life experience. As they say – there is no good wind for a ship that doesn’t know where it’s going!

Defining your intentions isn’t necessarily easy. We are often ambivalent about the things we think we want and create our own resistance to achieving them. For example, you want to lose weight but you don’t want to give up fast food. You want to become a manager but you don’t want to lose the connection you currently have with your co-workers.

Writing a list of pros and cons to help you decide if what you think you want is what you really want can be emotionally tough. Admitting some things to yourself…like an intense fear of failure…can make you feel less confident and less capable before it makes you feel better! But developing our self awareness is sometimes hard. It also may take time to feel right in yourself when you call yourself to account.

I remember a long time ago…ending a long term relationship that was essentially abusive, was difficult in a personal way because I felt so guilty for putting myself through it and for ever holding myself in such low esteem that I let things slide that I shouldn’t have. Far more than the change in my circumstances or ideas of missing what I was used to in my life, I was really consumed by guilt about my own bad treatment of myself in allowing the relationship to continue when I should have ended it years back.

So self awareness that allows objective and precise definition of your goals and intentions is a process. It is something you learn to do better the better you know yourself.

Which is why I advocate a focus on Gratitude as a primary means of achieving your goals…and here’s why…

Developing a habit of being grateful means shifting your perspective and allows you to see the good in the bad; the opportunity in knock back; the potential in the struggle. And approaching development of self awareness with an “attitude of gratitude” makes the process far less painful. Seeing the good in the bad even while you’re experiencing something challenging, turns the tables!

On my channel www.youtube.annalouisemay.net I recently recommended some exercises to assist in embracing gratitude. And one that I think is a real eye opener to the potential of “counting your blessings”, is to push yourself to do it!

You might choose any number for this challenge…if you keep a gratitude diary and every day write down the things you are grateful for – even on days that seemed predominantly bad, you may find you remember being grateful for small things…enjoying the smell of the rain…having a long hot bath…your home…the things you take for granted you might be able to fill a page with if you decide to do it.

But what about if rather than count your blessings, you challenge yourself to find 100…200…500. List the numbers and at the start of the exercise you will tend to list things like friends and family. Pets. Your home. Your job. Once the big things are covered you being to list the small things…your first coffee of the day…the falafels you had for lunch…etc.

And then it becomes harder…you have so many numbers to fill. You’re wracking your brain. And pretty soon you’re writing good aspects of bad experiences. Once it begins your mind ferrets through your whole past looking for potentially good things in the negative experiences of the past. If you keep at it, you can’t help but fall into a mindset of gratitude and a feeling that nothing bad ever happened to you…there were challenges but they turned out to be good things later.

That’s the mindset that aligns you with your goals, ambitions and hopes and dreams; with no inner conflict or resistance to good things coming into your life you don’t just attract good things because you resonate with good things – your mind is focused in a way that means you see opportunities – you look for them and so you see them just as surely as people looking for problem are absolutely guaranteed to find them.

It’s a choice. We can’t choose everything that happens to us. But we can choose how we interpret it and respond to it.

So I absolutely recommend starting any manifesting work with actively pursuing and cultivating an attitude of gratitude. Everything naturally follows from decision.

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Mineral Magic & Lush Cosmetics Make Up Application Tutorial

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Quick Beauty Tips Blog n’ Vlog!

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This totally unfiltered close up is the most make up you’ll see me wear! I just finished a make up tutorial video I promised my sister & this is the result.  Putting on make up and giving a commentary makes it take ages but covered the basic things I use…because I don’t ever wear make up that needs reapplying or retouching so I tend to apply it and wipe it off so the residue is sufficient. Means to the untrained eye it’s hard to tell if I have make up on!

Basic info… I’m 43 this year but I use #cremedelamer moisturiser daily and as I’m #nocturnal, sun damage is limited. I do think #cremedelamer has an anti aging effect…but being a #hermit I don’t really get to compare myself to other people my age. I don’t drink. Quit smoking 9 years ago. Vegetarian for years and vegan for much of it and I dance every day. I think exercise is better than any makeup!
Make up I used…#wunderbrow eyebrow gel (not v neat but I was rushing!), #MineralPowder inc light reflecting #LaMer finishing powder. Lush cream eyeshadow & liquid eyeliner. Lush #redlipstick and tinted #lipbalm.

I do tint my eyebrows and eyelashes and #henna my hair fortnightly. Hair kept shiny with #Lush shampoos and conditioners as I avoid any silicone based products and heat styling. My hair hasn’t actually been cut for about 2 years so as you can see…split ends not a problem!

Took two 15 min vids to complete the demo though! Enjoy!

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ASMR General Upd8…family, harp, guitars…and whatever happened to my ex (Wolf)? Narcissistic Personality Disorder? (Answers on a postcard!)

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Today’s ASMR Whispering Witch Nocturnal Chat…a general catch up (in 4 parts).

A bit about my dad, his cancer and death, my harp (a little bit of singing)…and a general catch up on “Whatever Happened to my Fiancé?” (Answers on a postcard!)

The latter I have recorded several times. Posting up for the sake of continuity & so when I mention I have stuff to sort out…or refer to the mess that was left in 2014, you have an idea of what I am referring to. In a nutshell, Wolf ripped me off. He claims to be mentally ill. Though I have no way to validate that. My own psychology & psychotherapeutic studies would lead me to guess he has narcissistic personality disorder, is delusional and paranoid…perhaps has a serious mental illness. But that is only my personal point of view.

He is certainly a pathological liar, in my experience and by his own admission. As soon as he finished lying to me, he was lying to his family.

The video may give you clues…many red flags you would associate with NPD.

So tonight’s ASMR vlog is a general catch up…with some chat about how I was done up!

I haven’t had time to delete him from my personal FB historical pages & albums as yet. But he is ancient history to me and we certainly won’t remain in touch!

He left two years ago having lied to me for 14 months. Sometimes being aspie really helps you see the facts for what they are.

This only come up recently due to his attempt to contact me. I think perhaps he hoped some kind of reconciliation was possible. If he harboured any hope in that regard I can only say it was inappropriate in the circumstances at the least.

It’s easy to talk about it now, but his deception damn near derailed my life professionally and personally for a while. So I feel strongly about it right now and would definitely advise others to listen to their intuition. If you’re saving mobiles as evidence “just in case”, something is definitely wrong!

“Through Our Eyes: Living with Asperger’s” | Aspergirl | Magick | Mayastar | Meditation | Energy Healing

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I’ve blogged abt my aspergers…vlogged about my aspergers. And being able to use my High Functioning to do my work and do it in ways that a Neurotypical couldn’t, is a fulfilling experience. Living within my means when it comes to social connection, sensory stimulation (have to be more careful because those thing can trigger seizures – perhaps more now than when I was younger), and managing the additional anxiety (aspies make less oxytocin than neurotypicals – that means we don’t have the same way out of stress – most of us develop strategies for that through experience though so that’s something that’s become much easier with time for me).

But sometimes…one of the most depressing things to hear, is someone saying my brain wiring is a syndrome…is your eye colour a syndrome? Would you feel weird if people said you had been born with curly hair syndrome?

I’m sure you would. I feel the same when people see my autism as separate to me. Or they disregard or judge certain aspects while celebrating others. As if certain parts of me are not really connected. I don’t feel that way in myself…I think perhaps it reflects a limitation of the neurotypical mind that it can’t conceive mine as integrated!

People who know me know the challenges I have worked with – my total recall memory for example…great for learning but a nightmare if something bad happens and you remember it.

For me…the best thing that ever happened to me was my formal diagnosis – it meant I could research it and many more things made sense. Also, when you understand the physiological root of some tendencies it’s far easier to look for useful changes in behaviour or habit that will make life easier.

My routine is vital to my well being for reasons different to those a NT would cite. But if it means I eat healthy, exercise, don’t drink or smoke, meditate regularly etc. These are habits that would probably benefit a lot of people!

My habit of being nocturnal also helps a great deal but it works well for me. Magick (the actual process of Self Realisation – not the card game and not conjuring!), was my special interest from an early age and now that’s a huge advantage in my work (teaching online courses for energy healing, spiritual development & meditation – and doing ritual work to help people).

If it wasn’t for the extraordinary advantages that come as part of my autism, I wouldn’t have the extraordinary life I have now.

So I absolutely in no way shape or form would trade myself as I am for a more “ordinary” version ♡

ALM (Maya)

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Psychic Attack | Magickal Protection | Abuse & Manipulation | Karmic Reversal Spells | Narcissistic Personalities | Ego Projections & Negative Intentions

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The most requested spells and rituals I do for people are Reversal spells. By a long way this type of working (either as a preliminary preparation for other work or as a solution specific working), is what people need help with when they know that spiritually or psychically something is off…even if they’re not sure what it is.

Psychic attacks using black magick are extremely rare. But you need to consider what magick really is before understanding how it can help in other kinds of abuse where natural means don’t necessarily provide some levels of security.

Magick is defined as the art of causing change to occur in accordance with the will. So every act of will (conscious or unconscious) is an act of magick.

When we focus on an intention we begin to take actions and prepare ourselves for a desired situation or outcome to manifest and the Universe backs us up. When our higher will is engaged in seemingly mundane activities, we are reinforcing our intention with action and changes can occur more quickly because we are literally aligning ourselves with our goal.

This isn’t to do with good or evil…it’s more to do with aligning our actions and emotions with our thoughts and intentions. Magick is the way I do it but it does take training and commitment to learn. So I provide magickal services for others as part of my work. The opposite state would be a state of resistance, restriction and disparity. Anyone in that state would be a negative influence on others. Whether by their projected intentions (ego centred consciousness always looks outside for blame or cause), cruel actions, verbal abusive, emotional abuse or physical abuse.

With the outward projection of the ego centred person’s intentions, they are not just capable of psychic attack (abuse on a spiritual level), but they don’t have the self awareness nor the impulse control to prevent it.

This type of psychic attack is extremely common and often the victim questions the reality of it or tries to reason it away by thinking maybe if they were more professional, less sensitive, more confident…(etc)…they would feel differently. It can feel like an act of personal defeat to admit that we are being affected by someone spiritually. It means acknowledging a level of violation we haven’t acknowledged before. It can make a person feel powerless, paranoid and defeated. All of the things that can leave us more vulnerable to this kind of abuse.

Sometimes lifestyle or self esteem issues can mean we become attractive to people who are narcissistic. Times of change or emotional turmoil (a bereavement, change in job or house move), can leave us more vulnerable to the proffered “shoulder to cry on” and also mean we’re in a mental state where apparent encouragement and reassurances are taken “to heart” in ways we might not usually.

Narcissists often display extremely intense acts of apparent kindness, love or attention that a vulnerable person may be drawn to. It’s a phenomenon called “love bombing” and it’s actually a method of manipulation and control. It keeps the victim assured any misgivings they have are rooted in their own issues…not able to pinpoint exactly what feels “off”.

Once an element of control is established, the narcissistic personality requires validation and attention and conformity of the “victim”. The transition can be so subtle that unless you’re looking for it, you don’t notice it.

It’s perhaps worse when the narcissistic personality shows up in a scenario where acknowledging the problem is even more difficult – a work colleague, a client, a family member for example. Narcissists are always parasitic in nature and we may feel it on a spiritual level (intuitively), even while we believe that all is well on other levels.

A narcissist will tend to claim to have the best or worst of everything…childhood, health, luck etc. Their “story” will be compelling. They will usually describe themselves as a victim in some way. Their story may seem too good to be true or too bad to be true. But they lie as easily as they tell the truth and they’re generally pretty plausible. At first.

So the abuse begins right off the bat…manipulation is abuse. So whether they use lies or half truths to convince you of their story (often tailored to the victim by getting allowing you to talk enough about yourself they can tell you exactly what you want to hear). This is second nature to them. They learn to fake empathy by emulating others so they tend to get worse in the sense of being more manipulative or controlling over time. But better at doing it discreetly and fooling others.

Living a lie isn’t a consequence of their actions…for them it’s the method of getting what they need. They may project confidence and self assurance, but they are desparately needy. Craving external validation which they will pursue by any means necessary. It’s not a problem to them. They don’t have a conflicted need to balance their selfishness to assuage their conscience. They are very much stuck emotionally in the area of ego development – they may hide it well but inside it’s all turmoil, drama and obsession. And they feel entitled to have whatever they want. They are often intelligent and have a charming way about them, but scratch the surface and there is a sense of entitlement that trumps everyone else. They don’t have friends so much as pawns.

They are only interested in your interest in them…and how much of that they can acquire. Feeding their ego is like an addiction and they may be addicts for similar reasons. That’s not unusual but it is usually something you find out later.

One good way to assess whether someome is potentially a narcissist, is by repeating their story as they provide it so they are compelled to repeat it. Some may feel more confident because you’re showing an interest. Then deliberately misunderstand something with a statement “but you said you weren’t interested in….” – questionning them usually gives a glimpse of their true nature and anything they can perceive as criticism they will perceive as criticism. It’s likely they will expose a chink in their armour if you do this.

Other ways to do it is to pretend a third party would be critical of them rather than you. And see how they react. Criticism is never well received. At the very least they will seem “strangely” defensive or dismissive. If they think you are on their side and a third party isn’t you may get an insight into their attitude to people who might criticise them. Whether it’s their lifestyle, their past, the colour of their socks…the criticism test is revealing!

Another exposition method is easier later (the more involved you are with them, the more of a minefield their intolerance becomes) offering deliberate compliments and seeing how they react. They may go into an elaborate self effacement speech. They may take on a glow at the “win”.

In fact…look out for their tendency to offer speeches. It’s a tendency to prevent you interrupting. Which belies a tendency to decide what you can say and when.

If you’re dating one…this tendency is one of the weird things you may or may notice. If they think you are about to speak your own mind (rather than theirs), they may react with a kiss. One that ends the conversation. Even if you get the vibe something is up, it’s hard to admit to yourself that a kiss might have been an action of control – to literally shut you up. That seems crazy. Because they are crazy. And unfortunately, not in a way that will change or can be helped by therapy.

The safest way to not be stung by a narcissist is to never get involved. Unfortunately they are drawn to similar traits and some people end up feeling they’re magnets for this type. Literally watch your body language – they will be. If you naturally are a quiet person with a naturally shy or understated demeanour, they may assess at first sight that you’re possibly introverted, passive and insecure. An “easy mark”.

Not all narcissists present all the same red flags. But because their consciousness is so ego centred, they have similarities. And without fail are a negative and destructive influence with a potential for abusive behaviour that’s guaranteed.

There are so many variables in any situation. Any relationship or connection. And the Karmic bond formed with people we mix with, that magick can’t just erase the symptoms; it’s a case of removing the connection to prevent the problem recurring. In long term relationships this may take time because the narcissist will harbour hope they can change your mind and is unlikely to take no for an answer.

So, reversal spells work from the inside out; magick is a process of “reweaving” that makes it less likely the problem will return. A narcissist is waging their own personal psychic war because they project their intentions so fluently (like a kind of psychic incontinence similar). But the reweaving on a psychic level creates an environment that means they will tend to stop considering you a prospect. If it takes a few reversals, it’s because over a period of time their intention may undermine yours. But magick can be greatly empowering in protecting you and preventing their projected need. Which may be to keep you in their life as an enemy if they can’t keep you in it as a friend. It’s most important if using magick to resolve this kind of attack, you don’t allow them a foothold in your actions (no matter how they try to achieve that), because responding to them increases their influence on you and would restrict a successful disconnection to prevent continued harm or disharmony to manifest as part of their “campaign”.

So if you find yourself a victim, don’t become disheartened! Whatever practical steps you take can be supported with magick. It gives you a choice and empowers you to deal with the situation.

So you can see, the idea that someone’s doing black magick and attacking you is nonsensical! Trying to use magick in this way would be against the natural current; it would be like making water flow up hill!

But psychic attack is a common problem. It doesn’t involve someone performing black magick rituals or sticking pins in a voodoo doll or anything so elaborate. It can deliberate but also sometimes unconscious. And the more ego centred the perpetrator is, the more important it is to disconnect fully.

A Karmic Reversal spell is a safe and effective way of preventing the hindering influence of another or others from causing you any harm or restriction on an energetic level. It works from the subject out and simply put it dissolves any negative karmic bonds – reverses negative intentions, speeding up the karma if necessary for full resolution or simply dissolving negative connections if that’s more effective.

It’s really a way to bring harmony to your situation instead of deflecting or ignoring it. In many senses you can consider this kind of magick a healing process; healing by dissolving negativd energetic connections and allowing you to move forward.

You can find more information on how magick works on my website www.mayamagickal.net

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Oops! While making a vid about Henna, I had a seizure! If you are curious what a TLE seizure may look like…please check it out! (I haven’t seen myself have one either – so it was interesting for me too!)

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Unusual mini vid tonight!

I have temporal lobe epilepsy (TLE).

I was referred for brain scans and tests and prescribed drugs after having a few grand mal/tonic clonic seizures. But found out I had many petit mal partial seizures.

They can affect me in different ways but don’t appear seizure like to anyone watching. I lose my ability to understand what I see. Or I lose my short term memory. Mostly. Or those are the ones I notice.

But due to a v negative effect to an SSRI prescribed during a career change ( which clashes with the autistically wired brain and made me insane! Almost literally), in 2009 I saw my neurologist and said I would like to go drug free because of the mid to long term side effects of drug treatment.

He agreed with me…and we had a long conversation about philosophy where he recommended I read 7 years in Tibet and I recommended he read the Bhagavhad Gita (seriously…there is something about aspers that’s refreshing to those who think spiritually or philosophically…I never expect to have a conversation about it but people feel they can talk on a level with me!).

Anyway. I’m tired tonight and worked a long day so I was busy telling my viewers about my henna mix (hair dye), when my TLE struck. It happens when I rush or when I relax. Light, noise and reading can aggravate it. So I take care to minimise risks. I take valerian root and wind down for a few hours before bed. Wear sunglasses in the bedroom etc.

But fluke of flukes,  just had one when I was recording. This is interesting to me. I notice my hand goes to my head like it hurts. It doesn’t hurt. It feels like white noise explosion in the brain. But I don’t fall, I don’t slur, I don’t forget what I am saying even though I go off at a tangent. Most importantly, if I hadn’t told the viewers I was having one, you wouldn’t have known.

Which is why until I had a big seizure, no one knew I had epilepsy!

Listening back to it, I do notice I pause between words increasingly before I have the seizure. And in this tired state, I move my head a lot as if focusing my eyes is uncomfortable. Which it is. And which is usually my cue for a Hepburn treatment (oversized sunglasses indoors).

I am going to post this for epilepsy awareness. Epilepsy doesn’t carry the stignma it once did. For some reason people with aspergers are more likely than average to have epilepsy. Also, sometimes people grow in and out of it.

My autism and epilepsy would be considered disabilities by some. I don’t feel that way about them. Some people have stinky feet and cake addictions…far more debilitating! Also allergies…much worse. So I don’t consider my autism or my epilepsy as disability. Some people have bad manners…surely, that’s worse!

So, I am posting this up with the seizure included for people who don’t know about epilepsy (or henna). Not all epilepsy is grand mal seizures with thrashing about and blue lips. And not all petit mal seizures are the same! I can talk when mine happen but usually can’t see!

I could write more…but I don’t want to write a medical journal article. I just thought maybe it would be informative. If I have never seen myself have a partial seizure before, I expect most people haven’t seen me have one. So it’s sort of interesting…but also may help you understand a bit more about epilepsy in general.

Plus…anything about natural beauty products like henna powder and coconut oil are interesting in a whole different way! So there’s something for everyone!

And also, now you know why I wear sunglasses in the house at night. I am of course, that cool! But they serve a function too!